______If you want to know what makes me sad
Well it's hope, the endurance of faith
A battle that lasts a lifetime,
A fight that never ends.
I believe that we are who we choose to be. Nobody's going to come and save you, you've got to save yourself. Nobody's going to give you anything, you've got to go out and fight for it. Nobody knows what you want except for you. And nobody will be as sorry as you if you don't get it. So don't give up on your dreams.
Do you wonder how I stay
So complacent
It's like waiting for the ocean
To save you from the waves
When you're so far under
A person is never as quiet or unrestrained as they seem, as bad or as good, as vulnerable or as strong, as sweet or as feisty. We are thickly layered, page lying upon page, behind simple covers. And love- it is not the book itself, but the binding. It can rip us apart or hold us together.
Throughout life people will make you mad, disrespect you, and treat you bad.
Let God deal with the things they do, because hate in your heart will consume you too
I never finish phrases, I misspell. Open arms are prison cells. When I said, "I hate what I've become," I lied. I hated who I was. So when you start to wonder 'bout the pain in my throat, then don't you ever, no never, ever, speak for someone you don't know.
there's no body to batter when your
mind is your might so when you go
solo you hold your own hand and
remember that depth is the greatest
of heights and if you know where you
stand then you know where to land
and if you fall it won't matter cause
you'll know that you're right
And even though the moment passed me by, I still can't turn away. Cause all the dreams you never thought you'd lose get tossed long the way. And letters that you never meant to send get lost or thrown away.
"I came for your questions of what you don’t know
But you can’t see the answers unless I go
So give me your hatred and give your diseased
Give me your tired and I’ll take them with me
Cause I’m hanging here losing every part of me
Just to open your eyes to what you would never see
And to answer your questions there’s no place that I’d rather be."
Goodbye my almost lover. Goodbye my hopeless dream. I'm trying not to think about you, can't you just let me be? So long my luckless romance. My back is turned on you. I should've known you'd bring me heartache. Almost lovers always do.
It takes two people to make a lie work: the person who tells it, and the one who believes it.
"Everyone is standing in a line, not literally but figuratively. We're all waiting for our life to screw us over. One by one, we get called to move forward."
"sometimes i'm scared out of my mind and sometimes
i just get angry because i've let down the people i love
but i will not let down the people who love me."
I'm terrified that I can't recollect the faces that once kept
me warm. Time takes it toll on me. I used to be so
obvious with my words. But at least I was honest.
Oh, instincts are misleading
You shouldn't think what you're feeling
And you're kept in an open cage
So you're free to leave or stay.
Sometimes you get confused
Like there's a hint I am trying to give you.
The longer you think, the less you know what to do.
It's hard to see your way out
When you live in a house in a house
Cause you don't realize
That the windows were open the whole time.
you can do better than me
But I can't do better than you
His head was a city
Of paper buildings
And the echoes that remained
Of old friends and lovers
Their features bleeding
Together in his brain
I think that it's brainless to assume that making changes to your window's view will give a new perspective
I don't mind restrictions or if you're blacking out the friction
It's just an escape (it's overrated anyways)
And as they all grow older the truth will be understood,
cause we never turn out the way we thought we would.
It's hard to never mind.
Looked through my high school annuals to see who I still knew
but my point of view's forever changed
I think way too much about the way things should be said
'cause it just can't leave my head all the way.
Sometimes I can't escape from my room so excuse me,
I'll be just a little late.
everyone is changing, there’s no one left that’s real. so
make up your own ending, and let me know just how you feel.
september never stays this cold where i come from and you know i’m
not one for complaining, but i love the way you roll excuses off the tip
of your tongue as i slowly fall apart. this won’t mean a thing come tomorrow,
and that’s exactly how i’ll make it seem cause i'm still not sleeping, thinking i’ve
crawled home from worse than this. so please, please i’m running
out of sympathy, and i never said i’d take this lying down.
And I would turn on the TV, but it's so embarrassing to see all the other
people - I don't even know what they mean. And it was magic at first, but
let everyone down and now this world is gonna hurt: You better turn it around.
in a world that keeps turning and moving so fast, when you can't
hold onto nothing and nothing seems to last. it's so good to know that love still remains.
i feel like i'm at the top of my game.
karma just snitched and i got the blame.
i lost control of my arms and legs.
you may have the candle but i have the flame.
i never used to feel so sick and tired.
i remember when we used to stay high for hours.
one minute it's here, and then it's gone.
i get buried underneath all the things they think you are,
and i'm too tired to pretend it doesn't hurt to be left out.
contrast and compare between the busy ones and the ones that don't care
until there is no one that you really know. so i drift through these days of
appointments and promises made they will all end up broken and quickly replaced.
it's like writing every dream
you've ever had on a
foggy window and
watching it slowly fade away
Our days would be happier if we gave people a little bit of our heart rather than a piece of our mind.
everbody has a secret world inside of them. all the people of the world. i mean everybody, no matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they've all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds. not just one world, but hundreds of them, thousands maybe.
It is very easy for you to call me a happy man: You are only a spectator. - George Bernard Shaw
She looks happy;
but she is only triumphant, successful, victorious.
That is not happiness, but the price for which the strong sell their happiness.
-George Bernard Shaw
Trust me, i know how it feels.
i know exactly how it feels to cry
in the shower, so no one can hear
you, and waiting for everyone to be
asleep so you can fall apart. for everything
to hurt so bad you just want it all to end.
i know exactly how it feels
No room to breathe with walls as cold as a gallery
This is no place for me
Such hard faces in smoke
The smell lingers in my clothes
It's a bad night to be alone
But that's the way it goes
Welcome to my world
Where everyone I ever need always ends up leaving me alone
Another lesson burned
And I'm drowning in the ashes
Writing a poem is like seeing shapes in a cloud;
The person next to you hardly ever knows what the hell you're talking about.
I felt every ounce of me screaming out,
but the sound was trapped deep in me.
My hand is on the trigger,
i'm ready to ignite.
Tomorrow might not make it,
but everything's all right
I'm sorry for not telling you the truth.
For lying.
I'm sorry for not telling you that inside i was dying.
Yes,
She has trust issues.
But if you were her,
You would too.
Hold me close and don’t let go;
I'm so scared to be alone.
I've been by myself for too long,
And always had to be strong.
Now I only want to rest;
And lay my head on your chest.
Hold me close and don’t let go;
These wars I fight no one knows.
Now whisper how you love me,
Say it tender and softly.
I am weary and soon will sleep,
But with you no longer will I weep.
So hold me close and don't let go,
For I never want to be alone.
Douse yourself in cheap perfume it's,
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are.
You can't cover it up.
I'm careless & I’m cruel
but I’m still easily bruised.
I’m tired of lying about it.
I’m not bullet proof
I had hope,
I believed
But I'm beggining to think that I've been decieved
"You don't understand what it's like to be different.
What it's like to hide so people don't think you're a freak.
Everywhere I go, I hear people's thoughts.
I can't block it out anymore."
Too young to die
Too old to believe in promises
She’s a little scared to get close to anybody,
because anybody that said they would be there, left her.
Turn my back on this old world
Leave it all behind
This place is not my home
It's got nothing for me
Only leaves me emptiness
And tears in my eyes
She won't ever forget you.
You meant the world to her.
You can't forget people like that.
Athazagoraphobia: Fear of being forgotten.
Take back everything I said, know that I'm never coming home again. I know that it's for the best. Come back when I know I've been washed clean of my emptiness. When these words aren't meaningless.
Empty ocean is all we see, the north star is all we need. This time is probably right for everyone to say their goodbyes. "May day! May day!" she said to me. However it's too late. Captain, oh Captain, we've lost our direction.
And they drown in the flood of the tears that have been wept. And I scream to the sky: "No, you are not alone." If you think that your words will ever make a difference think again and carry on because the weight behind the hand that holds us is strong. But there is hope in the roar of a thousand pleading cries, and all these things that we tie together.
It's not the end, but it feels like it is. I'm waking up like I'm back from the dead. I'm stepping out and I feel so afraid, but as long as I'm moving it's all right. I feel alive and it hurts for a change. And looking back and it's hard to believe that I was cool, with the days that I wasted complacent and tasteless and bored but that was yesterday. We're never going back to okay. We're never going back to easy, we're never going back to the way it was. We're never going back to okay. This discontent like a slap in the face of mediocre. I've had enough of this place. This party's over, and I'm moving away from the frills of you, Beverly Hills, but that was yesterday.
I never finish phrases, I misspell. Open arms are prison cells. When I said, "I hate what I've become," I lied. I hated who I was. So when you start to wonder 'bout the pain in my throat, then don't you ever, no never, ever, speak for someone you don't know.
Don't ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody.
When we built these dreams on sand. How they all slipped through our hands. This might be our only chance. Let's take this one day at a time. I'll hold your hand if you hold mine. The time that we kill keeps us alive.
People are like stained glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is light from within.
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are.
You only have one life to live, so do whatever you want. Don't ever let anyone tell you how to live your life. Believe what you wanna believe and say what you wanna say, cause no one can help how they feel. Be yourself cause there's only one you out there. When life gives you it's tasks and obstacles, overcome them. When you think that you can't do something anymore, you haven't actually tried. Labels are worthless and drama is pointless, yet we all still do it. Working hard for something and then getting it, is a better feeling than not working hard at all and getting things just handed to you. Love isn't a maybe thing, your either with or without someone, there's no in between, but dating someone isn't a necessity. And looks really aren't everything. "I wish i wasn't here, i wish i was dead", Shut up, everyone's here for a reason. When bad things happen in life, you just have to accept the fact that it happened and just move on and don't look back on the past. Don't regret something if you learned something out of it, cause mistakes make you stronger.
Nothing sucks more than feeling all alone. No matter how many people are around you.
- Scrubs
I guess a big part of growing up is dealing with regret. Swallowing your pride. There are some things in life you can't go back and change, no matter how much you want to.
I need to trust my instincts and let go of my fear and regret. If it was meant to happen, it'll happen. Fate has it's funny ways. It's just a matter of time and the right moment. Fate exists, but it can only take you so far because once you're there it's all up to you to make it happen.
I know from experience that you should never make someone you're everything because when they're gone, you really have nothing. All you have are the memories of the happy times. But even though they're happy memories, it hurts to think about them.
As we grow older, it becomes difficult to just believe. It's not that we don't want to, but too much has happened and we can't.
The sooner you know who you are and what you want, the less things you'll let upset you.
She's the kind of girl you forget as soon as you meet. She is the crust on the bread; every face you have ever forgotten. She is the verse to that song on the radio, the forgettable. But broken hearts and backstabbing drama couldn't touch her; she's far beyond that.
God doesn't give you the people you want. Instead, he gives you the people you need. To teach you, to hurt you, to love you and to make you exactly the way you're meant to be.
Everything you have been told is a lie. Things don't happen for a reason. They just occur and you must deal with it, good or bad. People will always leave you because the potential for better is there thanks to the media. They do not care if they have to step on top of you to get to euphoria. Every body has somebody they use. And everybody, everybody lies. They all get mad and say things they don't mean. But once they are said, they are out there, unable to be shoved back down your throat. Watch your tongue, but even more importantly, watch your back. There is always someone standing there ready to stab you.
Take a step back. Fucking look at yourself. You are human. You are beautiful. You are so beautiful. And you can be anything. You can be everything. Do not hate everyone because someone broke your heart, or because your parents split up, or your best friend betrayed you, your father hit you, the kid down the street called you fat, ugly, stupid, worthless. Do not concern yourself with things you cannot control. Cry when you need to, then let go when it’s time. Don’t hand onto painful memories just because you’re afraid to forget. Let go of things that are in the past. Forget things that aren’t worth remembering. Stop taking things for granted. Live for something. Live for yourself. Fall in love. Fall out of love. Fall in love. Fall out of love. Do this over and over until you know what it really is to love someone. Question things. Tell people how you really feel. Sleep under the stars. Create. Imagine. Inspire. Share something wonderful. Meet new people. Make someone’s day. Follow your dreams. Live your life to it’s full potential. Just live, dammit. Let go of all of the horrible in your life and fucking live. And one day, when you’re old, look back with no regrets.
Too bad that people can't switch problems. Because nobody knows how to solve their own problems,but they always know how to solve another's.
If you can't solve it, It isn't a problem - it's reality. And sometimes reality is the hardest thing to understand and the thing that takes the longest to realize. But once it hits you in the face you'll never forget it. It will always be there in your memories and sometimes that's the best way to look at it.
Don't waste your time on things that only hurt you, & remember to forget those who forgot you
There are just certain things in life that are better off unknown; things you wish you never asked, never saw, never heard or never even felt
I wasn't ready for the words you chose when you said goodbye, or how suddenly the roads could close between your life and mine.
It's okay. I mean, no, obviously it's not okay, but it's how it is. We've had the chance to say that about a lot of things for a long time now, haven't we? It's not okay, it's just how it is.
I used to be such a burning example. I used to be so original. I used to care I was being cared for. Made sure I showed it to those that I love. I used to pray like God was listening. I used to make my parents proud. I was the glue that kept my friends together. Now they don't talk and we don't go out. I used to know the name of every person I'd kissed. Now I made this bed and I can't fall asleep in it.
Often, I think about the people who’ve walked away or drifted apart and it makes me really sad. So most times, I force myself to not think of it, and convince myself that there’s a reason why they’re not in my life now.
Life doesn't come with a handbook or road map, you have to figure out the rules, rights and responsibilities; you have to remember which routes are right, and which are wrong. But most importantly you don't necessarily have to know where you're going, but you should always remember where you've come from.
You did hurt me, and I'll remember you, but you're not the first, the last, or the worst. Don't flatter yourself.
If I could tell you only one thing, it would be to never give up. Not on anything. Not your dreams, not your best friends, cause you'll never know when that's going to be all you've got.
You're right; I'm not who I once was, because we aren't who we once were.
I believe in second chances, I just don't believe everyone deserves them.
In this moment, who we are is all we have. But maybe, that's all we need.
There is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these lovable qualities are self-destructive & unreasonable. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else; they're often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins.They win, & you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else.
I'm sorry things went so downhill. We were so sure things were going to be amazing and spectacular, but now I'm starting to see everything I didn't want to believe. I'm sorry I stopped loving you. I'm sorry you did, too. Maybe things aren't meant to be. I'm going to miss you, but it's time we hold our heads high, bite our lips and get over each other. I think it's the best way. Maybe we'll find someone better. Then again, maybe we won't.
Don't talk to me, don't look at me and no, we can't be friends. This little game you're playing has to end. You can't flirt with me like it's nothing because you're breaking my heart. My entire world is falling apart so you go your way, and I'll go mine. I'm going to get over you, I just need time.
I don’t understand how you can smile all day long, but cry yourself to sleep at night. How pictures never change, but the people in them do. How you can love so innocently, but it can turn into anger so quickly. How your best friend can become your worst enemy. Or when your worst enemy turns into your best friend. How forever turns into a few short months that you'd do almost anything to get back. How you can let go of something you once said you couldn’t live without. How even though you know letting go of something is best for you, it hurts just the same. How the people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much time to spare. How people make promises, and bear their souls to someone despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken. How people can erase you from their lives ‘cause it’s just easier then working things out.
You've changed so much. I guess that's what happens. I wish you knew how much you've changed me. I wonder if I've changed you, if your life is different because of me.. because mine's different. My God, you taught me so much, and now we don't even talk to each other. I guess that's what happens.
We used to talk about everything. But now it's impossible to even start a decent conversation with you. You can't deny it. Things have changed, we've gone apart and you have to face that fact. That I will no longer be there everytime you need me. The truth is what it is. And that is I do not have any more respect for you as an individual now. You're just another face in the crowd.
I'm not going to spend my life chasing people. You want to leave? Fine then, go ahead. Because I'm done with chasing and caring for people who never had interest in me. Nothing lasts and people change. I've learned love is hard and life is strange.
Maybe in five or ten, yours and mine will meet again and straighten this whole thing out. Maybe then honesty need not be feared as a friend or an enemy, but this is the distance and this is my game face. There's really no way to reach me, cause I'm already gone.
I always think, when things don't work out, fine I guess it's meant to be like that, but now I'm starting to question. Perhaps I shouldn't do that, perhaps I should try to fix it.
Take all your dreams, Take all that's left to see Write it down, sign your name, go ahead and leave. There's nothing left to lose
You're the words that weren't enough you remind me of a song I used to love.
What about the promise that you made? To stay with me till your dying day. Said you'd never go away. Are they just things that people say?
If anyone asks, I'll tell them we both just moved on. When people all stare, I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk. Whenever I see you, I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue. Pretend I'm okay with it all, act like there's nothing wrong.
Life isn't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a mean and nasty place. It will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it.
Maybe it doesn't really matter if you wear your heart on your sleeve or if you lock it up in a box away from the world. In the end, everyone gets hurt.
When you want something, go for it. Never let circumstances or the others around you influence your actions. Times passes too quickly for hesitation.
And there’s nothing like the end to make you appreciate the beginning.
People put you down enough, and you start to believe it, the bad things are always easier to believe than the good things.
Life isn’t about how many people call you and it’s not about who you’ve dated, are dating, or haven’t dated at all. It’s not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn’t about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it’s not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn’t about that. But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It’s about how you feel about yourself. It’s about trust, happiness, and compassion. It’s about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. It’s about what you say and what you mean. It’s about seeing people for who they are and not for what they have. Most of all, it is about living your life to touch someone else’s.
Maybe one day, we'll meet again.When our two roads meet the same dead end.
Look, i know this sucks for you and i want to be there for you, i do, but i can't do this anymore. i can't keep being your second choice, not when you're my first.
Sometimes you have to hit rock bottom, to realize you're strong - strong enough to get back up and try it all again.
Even though we no longer speak, I still hope you’re doing okay. I’d never admit it to you, but I hate seeing you do this to yourself. I still care.
When we're constantly wishing for something more, we overlook everything we already have.
If you can't move the wall, there's always a way around it.
One of the hardest parts of life is deciding whether to walk away or try harder.
There will be two dates on your tombstone and everyone will see them, but all that matters is the dash in between them.
Sometimes I wish I hadn't been in such a hurry to move forward. There comes a point when it becomes impossible to go back.
The truth, I tried as hard as I could. I took as much as I could take. I put up with all I could, and it still wasn't enough.
If I knew growing up was going to be like this, I would have thrown on some tights and ran to Neverland.
I don't fight for people when they hurt me. Its like a switch they flip on their way out and I just don't care anymore.
Screaming and saying fuck a lot doesn't always get your point across. Sometimes staying silent is the most violent option.
Prove to me you're not average and we will be on the same page, the only difference I see in guys is that they all got different names
I will never ever lose hope. I refuse to. No matter the odds, no matter what happens, it’s still my choice, my decision, my power, to hold onto the faith in what I believe to be true. That's the one thing that can never be taken from me unless I allow it.
I wish my life was this song
cause songs they never die
I could write for years and years
and never have to cry
I'd show you how I feel
without saying a word
So I'll watch you live in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
And I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe
And I keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are
Hope it's nice where you are
And I hope the sun shines
And it's a beautiful day
And something reminds you
You wish you had stayed
You can plan for a change in weather and time
But I never planned on you changing your mind
If you want your life to be a magnificent story, then begin by realizing that you are the author and everyday you have the opportunity to write a new page.
There’s good and bad things in each day, what matters is what you make of those situations and how you view them. You can learn from every mistake and find the joy that comes from a new life, or you can complain about your life day in and day out hoping someone drops you a sympathetic comment.
Sooner or later, you have to come to the point where you stop feeling sorry for yourself and start finding the reasons you’re here.
Your talents are unlike anyone else’s. Embrace them.
There's so much that I want to say to you.
You're the only one in the world with enough wisdom and gentleness to understand.
If only it was somebody else's story and not mine.
As it is, you're the only one in the world that I can never tell. Never never.
Because even if I waited until we were old, old people and told you then,
you'd be bound to look back over the years and be hurt.
And my dear, I don't want you to be hurt.
Birds sing after a storm. Why shouldn't people feel as free to delight in whatever sunlight remains to them?
-Rose kennedy
Faith is universal. Our specific methods for understanding it are arbitrary. Some of us pray to Jesus, some of us go to Mecca, some of us study subatomic particles. In the end we are all just searching for truth, that which is greater than ourselves.
I kinda just wanna run away. Not because things are bad, or because there is something to run from, just because there is nothing in particular keeping me here.
The difference between fiction and reality? Fiction has to make sense.
-Tom clancy
The saddest kind of sad, is the sad that tries not to be sad. You know when sad tries to bite it's lip and not cry and smile and say, No, I'm happy for you? That's when it's really sad.
Forgiving does not erase the bitter past. A healed memory is not a deleted memory. Instead, forgiving what we cannot forget creates a new way to remember. We change the memory of our past into a hope for our future.
-Lewis B. Smedes
If you could hear me, I would tell you, that our fingerprints don't fade from the lives we've touched.
Because you're young, you're torn between a
world of hate and a world of dreams.
So much to lose, so much to gain,
so much to fight for, so much to change
too many people miss the silver lining
because theyre expecting gold.
Listen to the mustn'ts, child.
Listen to the don'ts .
Listen to the shouldn'ts,
The impossibles,
The won'ts.
Listen to the never haves,
Then listen close to me...
Anything can happen, child.
Anything can be.
- Shel Silverstein
You don't write because you want to say something, you write because you have something to say.
-F Scott Fitzgerald
If we can forgive what's been done to us. . .
If we can forgive what we've done to others. . .
If we can leave all of our stories behind. Our being villains or victims.
Only then, maybe, can we rescue the world.
And the truth is, sometimes you can prepare for something, be sure it’s the right choice, and yet still wake up one day, look around you, and think, “I made a mistake.”
We all lead secret lives, even if only in our heads.
Nostalgia - It’s a twinge in your heart far more powerful than memory alone. This device isn’t a spaceship, it’s a time machine. It goes backwards, and forwards… it takes us to a place where we ache to go again. It’s not called the wheel, it’s called the carousel. It let’s us travel the way a child travels - around and around, and back home again, to a place where we know are loved.
Don't stress the could haves. If it should have, it would have.
Sometimes, you'll never know the true value of a moment until it becomes a memory.
Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day.
Pretending that feelings aren't there doesn't make them go away.
“Peace is not something you wish for; It's something you make, Something you do, Something you are, And something you give away.”
Don't let the sadness of your past and the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present.
Her face was as lovely as the first rain of the summer;
her heart could hold gently the pain of the world.
All my life, I always wanted to fly. I always wanted to live like a hawk. I know you're not supposed to be jealous of anything, but...to take flight, to soar above everything and everyone... now, that's living. But a hawk is no good around normal birds ... it can't fit in. Even though all the other birds probably wanna be hawks ... they hate him for what they can't be.
God, I've had a lot of things come against me. Life hasn't treated me fairly. I'm off to a rough start.
But, God, I know You're a good God.
I know You have a great plan for my life. So I'm asking You to bless me indeed.
One day someone will come to you and rock you tightly in her arms.
Please remember this when you drop your guard, nobody has an unbreakable heart.
From an angels wing to a fallen star,
God makes everything but unbreakable hearts
"Every day the opportunity exists to change your life. But most days, the idea of having to change the big things in life just seems like too much work. Should I lie on the couch and watch a movie, or should I confront my personal demons? You get the point."
"One is taught by experience to put a premium on those few people who can appreciate you for what you are."
"I looked in all the places you aren’t. I just can’t find the places you are. I only know that you are where I am not."
-Winnie the Pooh
"But somewhere, there is a beach that time cannot reach. Where everyone and everything has always been and never was. And perhaps, you are there waiting for me. In that place, time cannot touch."
"Memory is a giggling sprite and will not be tamed. She takes flight the moment the present becomes the past."
"You spend your whole life in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and oh how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present."
Time doesn't always heal. It just breathes and swallows memories.
You smoke a little more every morning, and drink a little more every afternoon, and need a little more sedative every night. You’re beginning to feel unnecessary too.
The damage was permanent; there would always be scars. But even the angriest scars faded over time until it was difficult to see them written on the skin at all and the only thing that remained was the memory of how painful it had been.
And I know that you're busy too, I know that you care. You got your finger on the pulse, you got your eyes everywhere. And it hurts all the time when you don't return my calls, and you haven't got the time to remember how it was.
So fuck you, and your untouchable face. And fuck you for existing in the first place. And who I am, that I should be dying for your touch. And who I am, I bet you can't even tell me that much.
"I've spent a life time looking for the truth, and I have become the lie. Maybe some secrets should just stay secret."
And I pictured myself up in your face and then I pictured myself walking away. But it never seemed to go that way. That's so much easier than what I've got to say. And if this is supposed to be something more, then kindly explain what all the pain is for.
"Some of them hang onto my heart by a thread, pulling me deeper into oblivion. And some are just scars, a story or time that had been forgotten, mixed in with all the rest. Dazed and confused, I try and remember the exact moment I got the scar. It's impossible. Memories, like myself, free-fall into oblivion to be forgotten."
It was a long time ago in a place I wish I could leave behind. I was stronger then, everything was different about me. Everything was different about us. Seems that your smile left an imprint on me. Your hand is carved into the shape of my hand, and I wish you’d place it where it belongs. Come back. Why’d you leave me here all alone? I’m all alone.
I don't know what to say to you. Except that I am going to miss you. All I know is that you meant more to me than anyone else ever did or ever will. But if she loves you better than I do, then go, I can't stop you, go.
I used to have this image of my life. It wasn't perfection, it wasn't amazing. It was just happiness. I saw myself smiling, I saw my wishes granted. They weren't even far fetched wishes. But now they're lost forever. I threw them all away, when you threw me away.
Words are getting in the way, sentences strung along with muddled up hope. All the hope spills from deep inside of my stomach. When you stare back at me with that blank look on your face, I know that I will never get that hope back again.
In that moment I learned a lot more than one can imagine. I learned how many things can change in just a short year. And how everything I thought about someone could be turned around to hate and anger. How no matter how many promises are spoken, it’s never the truth that was said.
You make it sound so easy to be alive. But tell me how am I supposed to seize this day when everything inside of me has died?
Forget this wasted year, these wasted years. Devoted friends, they disappear and I'm sorry about the phone call and needing you, some decisions you don't make. I guess it's just like breathing and not wanting to. There are some things you can't fake. I guess that it's typical to cling to memories you'll never get back again and to sort through old photographs of a summer long ago or a friend that you used to know and there below, his frozen face, you wrote the name and that ancient date and you can't believe that he's really gone, when all that's left is a fucking song and I'm sorry about the phone call and waking you. I know that it is late, but thank you for talking, because I need to. Some things just can't wait.
It’s four in the morning and I’m turning in my bed. I wish I had a dream or a nightmare in my head, so I drop my imagination and get some sleeping done. Now it’s five in the morning and I’m wishing it was one.
"I'm sorry if you miss me. I'm sorry I don't care. I was just a crutch for your loneliness, your heart was never really there. I'm sorry that I wasted so much of my time, time that I could have spent with someone else; would have meant less of you and all your lies."
"I'm not looking for love between my sheets, because love is known to wear and tear. Just a checkmark on the months and weeks, and I don't care, if you don't care."
"I find the older I get, the more I hate myself. My lungs are filled with self-loathing and regret, that's all I breathe in. The carbon-dioxide I'm letting go is happiness. Soon, the sunshine will die completely. So, I'm asking you to stay in one last attempt to fix this. In one last attempt to make you fall for me again."
I mean you lie about being fine for so long, eventually, you're going to wake up one day and realize, you are, in fact, fine. That's what I always thought. And like I have been a million times, I was wrong."
I wish you would just open your eyes & see what you`re losing. I mean ; it`s me. The person you felt you could "stay with forever." & of course, I wonder what happened. What person wouldn`t? But I just wonder if you even think about making it better? We both screwed up ; a lot, but I can`t forgive you for what you did. You didn`t even make an attempt on making it better. You just let me go.
I don't expect the world to treat me fairly. I don't expect people to be reasonsible or keep their promises. I realize cruelty and catastrophe are part of living, and that with every good thing there must also be a bad. I don't believe in perfection or true love. I'm never surprised by anything or anyone. I think people do the best that they can, everything they could; but that doesn't always mean it was everything they should. We are all broken in our own, little ways. Ideals and hopes are guidlines. I don't hold on to much, because in the end, you're always forced to let go.
I thought I'd write, I thought I'd let you know in the year since you've been gone I've finally let you go. And I hope you find some time to drop a note. But if you won't, then you won't. And I will consider you gone. I know that you went straight to someone else. While I worked through all these things by myself. And I think that you should spend some time alone, but if you won't, then you won't.
What’s worse than wanting something you can’t have? It’s not knowing what you want. Wishing on all the stars in the sky for the answers to your questions, for something to believe in… someone to hold. Having absolutely no control over yourself, being caught up in a place you wish you were miles away from. Being stuck somewhere between the past and the future, nowhere near where you should be - in the present. Stuck in yesterdays and tomorrows, so far from home, far from everything you know and love. The uncertainty could just tear you to bits.
There's a story behind every person. There's a reason why they're the way they are. They aren't just like that because they want to. Something in the past created them, and sometimes it's impossible to fix.
You know what? Yes I Have changed. I'm not as nice as I used to be, because I don't want to get used or walked over, I don't trust everyone and tell them my secrets , because behind every fake smile is a backstabbing bitch. I distance myself from people because in the end, they're only going to leave. I Have changed because I have realized that im the only person I can depend on.
The fact that I occasionally talk to you is one thing. But to think we're at the same place we were before is wrong. You ruined that, you should know you can't say some of those things and think everything is okay again. You admitted that you push people away, and I think it's your expectations and self-righteous standards that often make you hypocritical.
i think everyone has a certain part of their lives where they truly wish they could freeze time. whether it was three years ago, today or still to come, whether it was just a moment, a day or a whole summer. everyone has a time in their life where they wish everything would just stop. the world would stop turning and people would stop changing. because to them, at that time, everything is perfect.
I’m feeling no relief in my head, just doubt.
but my heart keeps telling me “hold your ground
you’ll never learn a thing if you bail out now.”
and I’m lonely again tonight
I can feel it like a knot in my side
they keep saying this is part of the ride
but I’m not getting any stronger
Its just, the lines, they get so blurry, between what is once, and now required. and I don't know on what side his heart falls but I know where mine is buried.\
I'm trying real hard not to shake,
I'm biting my tongue,
But I'm feeling alive and with every breath that I take,
I feel like I've won.
You're my key to survival.
But it's no use going back to yesterday,
because I was a different person then.
+ Alice in Wonderland
The more I look around and listen,
I realize that I'm not alone. We are
all facing choices that define us. No
choice, however messy, is without
importance in the overall picture of
our lives. We all at our own age have
to claim something, even if it's only
our own confusion. I am in the middle
of growing up and into myself.
You've left me with such a silent world.
The evenings are calm but I'm restless,
and my breath has become as thin as
the wind. Not even the mighty sky can
fill the space you left behind, not even
when it rains.
The biggest problem is getting beyond the “you can’t” syndrome.
The moment you figure that out, you’re on your way to flying.
Anyone who cannot see problems around him or herself is utterly
blind. All the problems sitting there are an invitation for you to
be creative, make use of your skills and resources and find a solution.
Of course you can do it. It doesn’t require brilliance. It’s just
giving yourself permission and then being persistent. Persistent
in seeing the problem or opportunity and persistent in thinking
about it until you have come up with some interesting ideas that
might change the pattern. It’s really a mindset, not anything in
the objective world — that is the problem."
++Bill Drayton
"Today is a winding road
That's taking me to places
That I didn't want to go.
Today, in the blink of an eye
I'm holding onto something
And I do not know why I tried."
+ "Thunder," Boys Like Girls
I told a lie, so we could both go our own ways.
Looking at the sky and how the colors on your face painted me an image filled with fear, and lined with grace.
Maybe someday we'll come back to this place.
"Tonight, you'll fall harder than ever
As all your hope hangs on a wire
Tonight, you'll see farther and clearer
The horizon's still a mystery."
+ "Catch Your Breath," by Oh So Cavalier
I saw you watching the stars,
and I caught you wanting them all.
Desire can change who you are.
You're so much better off when
nothing weighs you down.
+ "Casting Off" ; This Beautiful Republic
"You don't have to be a "person of influence" to be influential. In fact, the most influential people in my life are probably not even aware of the things they've taught me."
"Well i'm sorry for disappointing you.
but i'm done, with being up and down and pushed around.
no more."
"And even if somebody else has it much worse, that really doesnt change the fact that you have what you have."
-The Perks of Being a Wallflower
"You're going to come across people in your life who say all the right words at all the right times. but in the end, it's always their actions, not words, that matter."
"are you doing what you're doing today because
it's what you want to do, or because it's what
you were doing yesterday?
"Give me something to live for,
and I promise I won't give up."
"you may see me struggle,
but you will never see me fall."
"the nicest thing about the rain, is it evenutally stops."
-eeyore
"maybe i'm angry, cause i'm the one who's always wrong.
could you live without me, did you really ever have a doubt.
but do you understand baby, when you say it's over. it's done."
"life get's so much more confusing, when you know what you're losing."
"i would have never asked more from you then to care about me."
"the days drag on, the nights last forever.
everyday it’s tougher just to keep it together."
"I get the feeling that lately
nothing ever really lasts."
"You can't waste time over missing something in the past. Life changes, people grow up and grow apart, and you accept that. Yet you still can't stop thinking of how good it used to be; afraid you'll never experience it again, afraid you've already lived it and already lost it."
"sometimes, all we need is the knowledge that the other person keeps you in their thoughts, and that they care."
"and i don't know how to be fine when i'm not.
cause i don't know how to make a feeling stop."
"Life is a struggle, with everyday obstacles. We are always trying to make up for the things we lack. We need to hold on to everything and everyone that has once stepped foot on our hearts. For the impact, if ever so small, has gotten us here. To this."
"Don't be so quick to judge me,
you only see what I choose to show."
"maybe all i ever wanted was for you to care. just remotely.
and i don't really see anything wrong with that. with wanting
someone to care."
"don't tell me that you're sorry. i'm so passed the things you say
that you don't mean. and i mean it when i say, don't ever talk to me again.
you hurt me. you deliberately hurt me. Put yourself in my shoes."
"you have to accept that people
are going to stay in our hearts
even if they are out of our lives."
I'm sorry for the way you look at me...
I'm sorry for the life you've taken away from me...
I'm sorry for the scars on my arms...
I'm sorry for the pain everyone feels...
but most of all...
I'm sorry I'm alive...
we're crashing into the unknown;
we're lost in this, but it feels like home.
I live in the clouds.
Reality is not for me.
People say i should come down.
That the clouds are not a place for grown ups to be.
I smile at them.
Maybe one day, i say maybe one day i will come down.
But i never will.
Reality is not for me.
I shall stay up here.
The view is quite breathtaking.
if i'm not here tomorrow,
would you understand why i left you this way.
cause if i'm not here tomorrow..
it doesn't mean i didn't want to stay.
i wish i could disappear, unzip my skin and leave it here.
so i could be no one again and let nobody, i'd let nobody, i'd let nobody in.
"we are all part of something bigger.
and we are all part of it together."
"being able to survive it, doesn't mean it was ever okay."
"A wise man once said 'you can have anything in life if you're willing to sacrifice everything else for it.' What he meant is, nothing comes without a price. so before you go into battle, you better decide how much you're willing to lose. Too often, going after what feels good means, letting go of what you know is right, and letting someone in means abandoning the walls you've spent a lifetime building. of course, the toughest sacrifices are the ones we don't see coming, when we don't have time to come up with a strategy to pick a side or to measure the potential loss. When that happens, when the battle chooses us and not the other way around, that's when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear." - Grey's Anatomy.
"i just wanna go home. i've got to go home.
let me go home, i'm just too far from where you are."
"it's like all of the bad stuff that you went through, that you hated along the way; the people who disappointed you, the things that didn't go the way you wanted; suddenly you feel grateful for them, because those are the things that got you here, to this."
- The Perfect Man
"Never knowing. Shocking but we're nothing. We're just moments. We're Clever but we're clueless.We're just human.Amusing but confusing.We're trying but where is this all leading."
"Blame it on the weather,
but i'm a mess."
"death is not the greatest loss in life. the greatest loss is what dies
inside us while we live."
"here i am, on the edge
and i can't, fight the past.
it's so easy looking down.
just let it go. just let me go."
"when you told me the things i said i didn't want to hear
it tore me apart. well i want you to know that i don't give
a fuck, and that yeah, you ripped me apart. But you have
no idea how good it feels to walk away from you."
"you're a little late, i'm already torn."
"And this is about as social as I get now.
And I'm throwing away the letters that I am writing you
Cause they would never do,
I would never do."
"Sometimes i wonder
Why i work so hard to guard my heart
Till i hardly feel anything at all
I've spent my whole life building up this ivory tower
And now that im in it, i keep wishing it would fall
So i could feel the ground beneath me
Really taste the air im breathin'
And know that im alive."
"you decide. no one else. you make your life decisions.
you fuck up, it's your fault. you choose where and what
you want to do with your life. no one else."
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you,
holding you tonight."
Would it be okay if I walked away and never came back?
Because the days are getting longer...
... and it's becoming so much harder.
"I didn't say all the things I wanted to say,
and I can't get back what you've taken away."
"love your enemies, do good to those who hate you,
bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you."
+Luke 6:27-28
A poem begins with a lump in the throat, a home-sickness or a love-sickness. It is a reaching-out toward expression; an effort to find fulfillment. A complete poem is one where the emotion has found its thought and the thought has found the words."
-Robert Frost
And I wonder
If I was a mistake
I might have nowhere left to go
But I know that I cannot go home
These words are strapped inside my head
Tell me to run before I'm dead
Chase the rainbows in my mind
And I will try to stay alive
Maybe the world will know one day
Sentimental days
In a misty clouded haze
Of a memory that now feels untrue
I used to feel disguised
Now I leave the mask behind
Painting pictures that aren't so blue
The pages I've turned are the lessons I've learned
For he orders his angels to protect you wherever you go. Psalm 91:11
There's some things that I regret,
Some words I wish had gone unsaid,
Some starts that had some bitter endings,
Been some bad times I've been through,
Damage I cannot undo,
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
One minute you laugh
The next minute you're slowly sinking into something black
I get the feeling that lately nothing ever really lasts
I keep trying to get up but I keep falling back
And you love, and you hate, and you wait
Cause one minute goes fast
And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me
It turns out,
you can't save people from themselves.
[scrubs]
No matter how deep the stain of your sins. I can remove it. I can make you as clean as freshly fallen snow. Isaiah 1:18
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Youre a little late, Im already torn
Meredith: [narrating] In the hospital, we see addiction every day. It's shocking how many kinds of addiction exist. It would be too easy if it were just drugs and booze and cigarettes. I think the hardest part of kicking a habit is wanting to kick it. I mean, we get addicted for a reason, right? Often, too often, things that start out as just a normal part of your life at some point cross the line to obsessive, compulsive, out of control. It's the high we're chasing, the high that makes everything else fade away.
Moments. That's
all you get with
the people you love.
- Grey's Anatomy
We all honor heroes for different reasons.
Sometimes for their bravery, sometimes for their daring,
sometimes for their goodness, but mostly we honor heroes
because at one point or another we all dream of being rescued.
Of course, if the right hero doesn’t come along,
sometimes we just have to rescue ourselves.
"I know it sounds hard to believe but once you
stop fighting it and accept it as a part of you;
it's not such a bad thing.
It will still hurt, it will still tear you apart.
but in a different way; a more intimate way.
You can use it. It's yours. It belongs to you.
But the pain you're feeling now doesn't last forever.
It can't, it hurts too much. You can't live with that much pain -
not forever, your body can't take it. Your mind can't take it.
It knows that if you don't get over it, it's going to kill you.
And it doesn't want that. So it makes you get over it but
getting over it doesn't mean forgetting it.
It doesn't mean betraying your feelings, it just means
reducing the pain to a tolerable level; a level that doesn't destroy you.
I know that right now, the idea of getting over it is unimaginable.
It's impossible, inconceivable, unthinkable.
You don't want to get over it.
Why should you? It's all you've got.
You don't want kind words, you don't care
what other people think or say.
They are not you, are they? They can't feel what you feel.
You and me, we don't want anything.
We want to die, but life won't let us. We're all it’s got."
And I'm not sad.
I just want to trust someone so badly.
I just want something beautiful to happen here, right now.
"There’s nowhere you can be
That isn’t where you’re meant to be…”
keeping to yourself is no way to live. You can't fight
what's coming;; All that you can do is sit back and realize,
we will be there because you keep waiting for someone
to save you.
"the truth is i've never fooled anyone. i've let people
fool themselves. they didn't bother to find out who
and what i was. instead they would invent a character
for me. i wouldn't argue with them. they were obviously
loving somebody i wasn't."
- marilyn monroe
You'll see when you move out it just sort of happens one day
one day and it's just gone. And you can never get it back. It's
like you get homesick for a place that doesn't exist. I mean it's
like this rite of passage, you know. You won't have this feeling
again until you create a new idea of home for yourself,
you know, for your kids, for the family you start, it's like a cycle
or something. I miss the idea of it. Maybe that's all family really is.
A group of people who miss the same imaginary place.
-Garden State
We cut ourselves off from hoping for the best because
to many times the best doesn’t happen. But every now
and then something extraordinary occurs and suddenly
best case scenarios seem possible. And every now and
then something amazing happens, and against our better
judgment we start to have hope
-grey’s anatomy
We may not be as happy as you always dreamed we would be, but for the first time, let's just allow ourselves to be whatever it is we are and that will be better.
-garden state
learn from the mistakes of the past ,
move on with the future
take what you got ,
love what you had,
dont dwell on what you've lost ,
love what you've learned
everything changes eventually. thats just the
way life is. and you have no control over it.
suddenly people you thought would always be
there disappear. people die, they move away,
& they grow up.
-dawsons creek
It was becoming clear to me that i shouldn't become
too attached to anything; Turn your back….and you
lose it. Just like that.
-The truth about forever
Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well,
but you make this hard on me
the worst thing isn’t missing someone
it’s missing who you thought they were
We're all pretty bizarre, some of us are just
better at hiding it than others.
- Breakfast Club
Sometimes pain becomes such a big part of your
life that you expect it to always be there. Cause
you can`t remember a time in your life when it
wasn`t. But then one day you feel something else.
Something that feels wrong only cause it`s so
unfamiliar. & in that moment, you realize you`re happy.
And all the roads we have to walk along are
winding And all the lights that lead us there
are blinding, There are many things that I
would, Like to say to you but I don't know
how
all any of us can want is more time
time to stand up, time to grow up,
time to let go
you pull back your curtains
and the sun burns into your eyes.
you watch a plane flying across a clear blue sky.
this is the day your life will surely change.
this is the day when things fall into place.
she’s barely hanging on but she knows
she can’t let go because there’s so many
people waiting for her to fail. she was sad
but refused to cry. she wont open up,
she wont let anyone inside.
she's crying herself to sleep every night,
til her eyes shut and find better times.
she wakes when she dreams,
sleeps when she wakes.
shes slipping, she knows it.
her insecurities are getting the better of her.
one more disappointment and
she knows she isn't going to make it.
so lets make a promise.
promise you wont break her,
and she promises not to fall.
so tonight your hopes fall
and break the molds of fate.
your tear ducts run dry, you're bleeding all this paint.
so take back your lies and hold them all inside,
just tell me the truth, atleast for just one night.
the city is making me sick, and the season's getting colder.
and it's not helping now that we're growing so much older.
in all this monotony, oh darling it's getting to me.
and how do they expect for me to plan out my life so precisely?
and all this negativity, you know it's getting to me.
i just don't understand why we all can't run away.
Seeing you today made me realize just how far apart we've got. I hesitated
too long to say hello, even though I should have. I wanted to see
how you were doing but we are strangers now. You don't know me anymore.
Maybe you don't even want to. But it's okay, things are just different now.
I'm telling you this because you didn't ask. I've got it all here, growing
like a tumor in my throat. I'm telling you because if I don't, I will choke on it.
Everybody knows what happened but nobody asks.
in your life, you meet people. some you never think
about again. some, you wonder what happened to
them. there are some that you wonder if they ever
think about you. and then, there are some that you
wish you never had to think about again but you still do.
after a while you get sick of caring and
you're too hurt to fight. sometimes, no
matter what you do, things won't be alright.
"You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, even months analyzing a situation trying to put the pieces together, justifyin' what could've, should've, or would've happened. Or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move on."
"You don't have to be a "person of influence" to be influential. In fact, the most influential people in my life are probably not even aware of the things they've taught me."
Well it's hope, the endurance of faith
A battle that lasts a lifetime,
A fight that never ends.
I believe that we are who we choose to be. Nobody's going to come and save you, you've got to save yourself. Nobody's going to give you anything, you've got to go out and fight for it. Nobody knows what you want except for you. And nobody will be as sorry as you if you don't get it. So don't give up on your dreams.
Do you wonder how I stay
So complacent
It's like waiting for the ocean
To save you from the waves
When you're so far under
A person is never as quiet or unrestrained as they seem, as bad or as good, as vulnerable or as strong, as sweet or as feisty. We are thickly layered, page lying upon page, behind simple covers. And love- it is not the book itself, but the binding. It can rip us apart or hold us together.
Throughout life people will make you mad, disrespect you, and treat you bad.
Let God deal with the things they do, because hate in your heart will consume you too
I never finish phrases, I misspell. Open arms are prison cells. When I said, "I hate what I've become," I lied. I hated who I was. So when you start to wonder 'bout the pain in my throat, then don't you ever, no never, ever, speak for someone you don't know.
there's no body to batter when your
mind is your might so when you go
solo you hold your own hand and
remember that depth is the greatest
of heights and if you know where you
stand then you know where to land
and if you fall it won't matter cause
you'll know that you're right
And even though the moment passed me by, I still can't turn away. Cause all the dreams you never thought you'd lose get tossed long the way. And letters that you never meant to send get lost or thrown away.
"I came for your questions of what you don’t know
But you can’t see the answers unless I go
So give me your hatred and give your diseased
Give me your tired and I’ll take them with me
Cause I’m hanging here losing every part of me
Just to open your eyes to what you would never see
And to answer your questions there’s no place that I’d rather be."
Goodbye my almost lover. Goodbye my hopeless dream. I'm trying not to think about you, can't you just let me be? So long my luckless romance. My back is turned on you. I should've known you'd bring me heartache. Almost lovers always do.
It takes two people to make a lie work: the person who tells it, and the one who believes it.
"Everyone is standing in a line, not literally but figuratively. We're all waiting for our life to screw us over. One by one, we get called to move forward."
"sometimes i'm scared out of my mind and sometimes
i just get angry because i've let down the people i love
but i will not let down the people who love me."
I'm terrified that I can't recollect the faces that once kept
me warm. Time takes it toll on me. I used to be so
obvious with my words. But at least I was honest.
Oh, instincts are misleading
You shouldn't think what you're feeling
And you're kept in an open cage
So you're free to leave or stay.
Sometimes you get confused
Like there's a hint I am trying to give you.
The longer you think, the less you know what to do.
It's hard to see your way out
When you live in a house in a house
Cause you don't realize
That the windows were open the whole time.
you can do better than me
But I can't do better than you
His head was a city
Of paper buildings
And the echoes that remained
Of old friends and lovers
Their features bleeding
Together in his brain
I think that it's brainless to assume that making changes to your window's view will give a new perspective
I don't mind restrictions or if you're blacking out the friction
It's just an escape (it's overrated anyways)
And as they all grow older the truth will be understood,
cause we never turn out the way we thought we would.
It's hard to never mind.
Looked through my high school annuals to see who I still knew
but my point of view's forever changed
I think way too much about the way things should be said
'cause it just can't leave my head all the way.
Sometimes I can't escape from my room so excuse me,
I'll be just a little late.
everyone is changing, there’s no one left that’s real. so
make up your own ending, and let me know just how you feel.
september never stays this cold where i come from and you know i’m
not one for complaining, but i love the way you roll excuses off the tip
of your tongue as i slowly fall apart. this won’t mean a thing come tomorrow,
and that’s exactly how i’ll make it seem cause i'm still not sleeping, thinking i’ve
crawled home from worse than this. so please, please i’m running
out of sympathy, and i never said i’d take this lying down.
And I would turn on the TV, but it's so embarrassing to see all the other
people - I don't even know what they mean. And it was magic at first, but
let everyone down and now this world is gonna hurt: You better turn it around.
in a world that keeps turning and moving so fast, when you can't
hold onto nothing and nothing seems to last. it's so good to know that love still remains.
i feel like i'm at the top of my game.
karma just snitched and i got the blame.
i lost control of my arms and legs.
you may have the candle but i have the flame.
i never used to feel so sick and tired.
i remember when we used to stay high for hours.
one minute it's here, and then it's gone.
i get buried underneath all the things they think you are,
and i'm too tired to pretend it doesn't hurt to be left out.
contrast and compare between the busy ones and the ones that don't care
until there is no one that you really know. so i drift through these days of
appointments and promises made they will all end up broken and quickly replaced.
it's like writing every dream
you've ever had on a
foggy window and
watching it slowly fade away
Our days would be happier if we gave people a little bit of our heart rather than a piece of our mind.
everbody has a secret world inside of them. all the people of the world. i mean everybody, no matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they've all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds. not just one world, but hundreds of them, thousands maybe.
It is very easy for you to call me a happy man: You are only a spectator. - George Bernard Shaw
She looks happy;
but she is only triumphant, successful, victorious.
That is not happiness, but the price for which the strong sell their happiness.
-George Bernard Shaw
Trust me, i know how it feels.
i know exactly how it feels to cry
in the shower, so no one can hear
you, and waiting for everyone to be
asleep so you can fall apart. for everything
to hurt so bad you just want it all to end.
i know exactly how it feels
No room to breathe with walls as cold as a gallery
This is no place for me
Such hard faces in smoke
The smell lingers in my clothes
It's a bad night to be alone
But that's the way it goes
Welcome to my world
Where everyone I ever need always ends up leaving me alone
Another lesson burned
And I'm drowning in the ashes
Writing a poem is like seeing shapes in a cloud;
The person next to you hardly ever knows what the hell you're talking about.
I felt every ounce of me screaming out,
but the sound was trapped deep in me.
My hand is on the trigger,
i'm ready to ignite.
Tomorrow might not make it,
but everything's all right
I'm sorry for not telling you the truth.
For lying.
I'm sorry for not telling you that inside i was dying.
Yes,
She has trust issues.
But if you were her,
You would too.
Hold me close and don’t let go;
I'm so scared to be alone.
I've been by myself for too long,
And always had to be strong.
Now I only want to rest;
And lay my head on your chest.
Hold me close and don’t let go;
These wars I fight no one knows.
Now whisper how you love me,
Say it tender and softly.
I am weary and soon will sleep,
But with you no longer will I weep.
So hold me close and don't let go,
For I never want to be alone.
Douse yourself in cheap perfume it's,
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are.
You can't cover it up.
I'm careless & I’m cruel
but I’m still easily bruised.
I’m tired of lying about it.
I’m not bullet proof
I had hope,
I believed
But I'm beggining to think that I've been decieved
"You don't understand what it's like to be different.
What it's like to hide so people don't think you're a freak.
Everywhere I go, I hear people's thoughts.
I can't block it out anymore."
Too young to die
Too old to believe in promises
She’s a little scared to get close to anybody,
because anybody that said they would be there, left her.
Turn my back on this old world
Leave it all behind
This place is not my home
It's got nothing for me
Only leaves me emptiness
And tears in my eyes
She won't ever forget you.
You meant the world to her.
You can't forget people like that.
Athazagoraphobia: Fear of being forgotten.
Take back everything I said, know that I'm never coming home again. I know that it's for the best. Come back when I know I've been washed clean of my emptiness. When these words aren't meaningless.
Empty ocean is all we see, the north star is all we need. This time is probably right for everyone to say their goodbyes. "May day! May day!" she said to me. However it's too late. Captain, oh Captain, we've lost our direction.
And they drown in the flood of the tears that have been wept. And I scream to the sky: "No, you are not alone." If you think that your words will ever make a difference think again and carry on because the weight behind the hand that holds us is strong. But there is hope in the roar of a thousand pleading cries, and all these things that we tie together.
It's not the end, but it feels like it is. I'm waking up like I'm back from the dead. I'm stepping out and I feel so afraid, but as long as I'm moving it's all right. I feel alive and it hurts for a change. And looking back and it's hard to believe that I was cool, with the days that I wasted complacent and tasteless and bored but that was yesterday. We're never going back to okay. We're never going back to easy, we're never going back to the way it was. We're never going back to okay. This discontent like a slap in the face of mediocre. I've had enough of this place. This party's over, and I'm moving away from the frills of you, Beverly Hills, but that was yesterday.
I never finish phrases, I misspell. Open arms are prison cells. When I said, "I hate what I've become," I lied. I hated who I was. So when you start to wonder 'bout the pain in my throat, then don't you ever, no never, ever, speak for someone you don't know.
Don't ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody.
When we built these dreams on sand. How they all slipped through our hands. This might be our only chance. Let's take this one day at a time. I'll hold your hand if you hold mine. The time that we kill keeps us alive.
People are like stained glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is light from within.
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are.
You only have one life to live, so do whatever you want. Don't ever let anyone tell you how to live your life. Believe what you wanna believe and say what you wanna say, cause no one can help how they feel. Be yourself cause there's only one you out there. When life gives you it's tasks and obstacles, overcome them. When you think that you can't do something anymore, you haven't actually tried. Labels are worthless and drama is pointless, yet we all still do it. Working hard for something and then getting it, is a better feeling than not working hard at all and getting things just handed to you. Love isn't a maybe thing, your either with or without someone, there's no in between, but dating someone isn't a necessity. And looks really aren't everything. "I wish i wasn't here, i wish i was dead", Shut up, everyone's here for a reason. When bad things happen in life, you just have to accept the fact that it happened and just move on and don't look back on the past. Don't regret something if you learned something out of it, cause mistakes make you stronger.
Nothing sucks more than feeling all alone. No matter how many people are around you.
- Scrubs
I guess a big part of growing up is dealing with regret. Swallowing your pride. There are some things in life you can't go back and change, no matter how much you want to.
I need to trust my instincts and let go of my fear and regret. If it was meant to happen, it'll happen. Fate has it's funny ways. It's just a matter of time and the right moment. Fate exists, but it can only take you so far because once you're there it's all up to you to make it happen.
I know from experience that you should never make someone you're everything because when they're gone, you really have nothing. All you have are the memories of the happy times. But even though they're happy memories, it hurts to think about them.
As we grow older, it becomes difficult to just believe. It's not that we don't want to, but too much has happened and we can't.
The sooner you know who you are and what you want, the less things you'll let upset you.
She's the kind of girl you forget as soon as you meet. She is the crust on the bread; every face you have ever forgotten. She is the verse to that song on the radio, the forgettable. But broken hearts and backstabbing drama couldn't touch her; she's far beyond that.
God doesn't give you the people you want. Instead, he gives you the people you need. To teach you, to hurt you, to love you and to make you exactly the way you're meant to be.
Everything you have been told is a lie. Things don't happen for a reason. They just occur and you must deal with it, good or bad. People will always leave you because the potential for better is there thanks to the media. They do not care if they have to step on top of you to get to euphoria. Every body has somebody they use. And everybody, everybody lies. They all get mad and say things they don't mean. But once they are said, they are out there, unable to be shoved back down your throat. Watch your tongue, but even more importantly, watch your back. There is always someone standing there ready to stab you.
Take a step back. Fucking look at yourself. You are human. You are beautiful. You are so beautiful. And you can be anything. You can be everything. Do not hate everyone because someone broke your heart, or because your parents split up, or your best friend betrayed you, your father hit you, the kid down the street called you fat, ugly, stupid, worthless. Do not concern yourself with things you cannot control. Cry when you need to, then let go when it’s time. Don’t hand onto painful memories just because you’re afraid to forget. Let go of things that are in the past. Forget things that aren’t worth remembering. Stop taking things for granted. Live for something. Live for yourself. Fall in love. Fall out of love. Fall in love. Fall out of love. Do this over and over until you know what it really is to love someone. Question things. Tell people how you really feel. Sleep under the stars. Create. Imagine. Inspire. Share something wonderful. Meet new people. Make someone’s day. Follow your dreams. Live your life to it’s full potential. Just live, dammit. Let go of all of the horrible in your life and fucking live. And one day, when you’re old, look back with no regrets.
Too bad that people can't switch problems. Because nobody knows how to solve their own problems,but they always know how to solve another's.
If you can't solve it, It isn't a problem - it's reality. And sometimes reality is the hardest thing to understand and the thing that takes the longest to realize. But once it hits you in the face you'll never forget it. It will always be there in your memories and sometimes that's the best way to look at it.
Don't waste your time on things that only hurt you, & remember to forget those who forgot you
There are just certain things in life that are better off unknown; things you wish you never asked, never saw, never heard or never even felt
I wasn't ready for the words you chose when you said goodbye, or how suddenly the roads could close between your life and mine.
It's okay. I mean, no, obviously it's not okay, but it's how it is. We've had the chance to say that about a lot of things for a long time now, haven't we? It's not okay, it's just how it is.
I used to be such a burning example. I used to be so original. I used to care I was being cared for. Made sure I showed it to those that I love. I used to pray like God was listening. I used to make my parents proud. I was the glue that kept my friends together. Now they don't talk and we don't go out. I used to know the name of every person I'd kissed. Now I made this bed and I can't fall asleep in it.
Often, I think about the people who’ve walked away or drifted apart and it makes me really sad. So most times, I force myself to not think of it, and convince myself that there’s a reason why they’re not in my life now.
Life doesn't come with a handbook or road map, you have to figure out the rules, rights and responsibilities; you have to remember which routes are right, and which are wrong. But most importantly you don't necessarily have to know where you're going, but you should always remember where you've come from.
You did hurt me, and I'll remember you, but you're not the first, the last, or the worst. Don't flatter yourself.
If I could tell you only one thing, it would be to never give up. Not on anything. Not your dreams, not your best friends, cause you'll never know when that's going to be all you've got.
You're right; I'm not who I once was, because we aren't who we once were.
I believe in second chances, I just don't believe everyone deserves them.
In this moment, who we are is all we have. But maybe, that's all we need.
There is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these lovable qualities are self-destructive & unreasonable. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else; they're often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins.They win, & you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else.
I'm sorry things went so downhill. We were so sure things were going to be amazing and spectacular, but now I'm starting to see everything I didn't want to believe. I'm sorry I stopped loving you. I'm sorry you did, too. Maybe things aren't meant to be. I'm going to miss you, but it's time we hold our heads high, bite our lips and get over each other. I think it's the best way. Maybe we'll find someone better. Then again, maybe we won't.
Don't talk to me, don't look at me and no, we can't be friends. This little game you're playing has to end. You can't flirt with me like it's nothing because you're breaking my heart. My entire world is falling apart so you go your way, and I'll go mine. I'm going to get over you, I just need time.
I don’t understand how you can smile all day long, but cry yourself to sleep at night. How pictures never change, but the people in them do. How you can love so innocently, but it can turn into anger so quickly. How your best friend can become your worst enemy. Or when your worst enemy turns into your best friend. How forever turns into a few short months that you'd do almost anything to get back. How you can let go of something you once said you couldn’t live without. How even though you know letting go of something is best for you, it hurts just the same. How the people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much time to spare. How people make promises, and bear their souls to someone despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken. How people can erase you from their lives ‘cause it’s just easier then working things out.
You've changed so much. I guess that's what happens. I wish you knew how much you've changed me. I wonder if I've changed you, if your life is different because of me.. because mine's different. My God, you taught me so much, and now we don't even talk to each other. I guess that's what happens.
We used to talk about everything. But now it's impossible to even start a decent conversation with you. You can't deny it. Things have changed, we've gone apart and you have to face that fact. That I will no longer be there everytime you need me. The truth is what it is. And that is I do not have any more respect for you as an individual now. You're just another face in the crowd.
I'm not going to spend my life chasing people. You want to leave? Fine then, go ahead. Because I'm done with chasing and caring for people who never had interest in me. Nothing lasts and people change. I've learned love is hard and life is strange.
Maybe in five or ten, yours and mine will meet again and straighten this whole thing out. Maybe then honesty need not be feared as a friend or an enemy, but this is the distance and this is my game face. There's really no way to reach me, cause I'm already gone.
I always think, when things don't work out, fine I guess it's meant to be like that, but now I'm starting to question. Perhaps I shouldn't do that, perhaps I should try to fix it.
Take all your dreams, Take all that's left to see Write it down, sign your name, go ahead and leave. There's nothing left to lose
You're the words that weren't enough you remind me of a song I used to love.
What about the promise that you made? To stay with me till your dying day. Said you'd never go away. Are they just things that people say?
If anyone asks, I'll tell them we both just moved on. When people all stare, I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk. Whenever I see you, I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue. Pretend I'm okay with it all, act like there's nothing wrong.
Life isn't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a mean and nasty place. It will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it.
Maybe it doesn't really matter if you wear your heart on your sleeve or if you lock it up in a box away from the world. In the end, everyone gets hurt.
When you want something, go for it. Never let circumstances or the others around you influence your actions. Times passes too quickly for hesitation.
And there’s nothing like the end to make you appreciate the beginning.
People put you down enough, and you start to believe it, the bad things are always easier to believe than the good things.
Life isn’t about how many people call you and it’s not about who you’ve dated, are dating, or haven’t dated at all. It’s not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn’t about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it’s not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn’t about that. But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It’s about how you feel about yourself. It’s about trust, happiness, and compassion. It’s about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. It’s about what you say and what you mean. It’s about seeing people for who they are and not for what they have. Most of all, it is about living your life to touch someone else’s.
Maybe one day, we'll meet again.When our two roads meet the same dead end.
Look, i know this sucks for you and i want to be there for you, i do, but i can't do this anymore. i can't keep being your second choice, not when you're my first.
Sometimes you have to hit rock bottom, to realize you're strong - strong enough to get back up and try it all again.
Even though we no longer speak, I still hope you’re doing okay. I’d never admit it to you, but I hate seeing you do this to yourself. I still care.
When we're constantly wishing for something more, we overlook everything we already have.
If you can't move the wall, there's always a way around it.
One of the hardest parts of life is deciding whether to walk away or try harder.
There will be two dates on your tombstone and everyone will see them, but all that matters is the dash in between them.
Sometimes I wish I hadn't been in such a hurry to move forward. There comes a point when it becomes impossible to go back.
The truth, I tried as hard as I could. I took as much as I could take. I put up with all I could, and it still wasn't enough.
If I knew growing up was going to be like this, I would have thrown on some tights and ran to Neverland.
I don't fight for people when they hurt me. Its like a switch they flip on their way out and I just don't care anymore.
Screaming and saying fuck a lot doesn't always get your point across. Sometimes staying silent is the most violent option.
Prove to me you're not average and we will be on the same page, the only difference I see in guys is that they all got different names
I will never ever lose hope. I refuse to. No matter the odds, no matter what happens, it’s still my choice, my decision, my power, to hold onto the faith in what I believe to be true. That's the one thing that can never be taken from me unless I allow it.
I wish my life was this song
cause songs they never die
I could write for years and years
and never have to cry
I'd show you how I feel
without saying a word
So I'll watch you live in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
And I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe
And I keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are
Hope it's nice where you are
And I hope the sun shines
And it's a beautiful day
And something reminds you
You wish you had stayed
You can plan for a change in weather and time
But I never planned on you changing your mind
If you want your life to be a magnificent story, then begin by realizing that you are the author and everyday you have the opportunity to write a new page.
There’s good and bad things in each day, what matters is what you make of those situations and how you view them. You can learn from every mistake and find the joy that comes from a new life, or you can complain about your life day in and day out hoping someone drops you a sympathetic comment.
Sooner or later, you have to come to the point where you stop feeling sorry for yourself and start finding the reasons you’re here.
Your talents are unlike anyone else’s. Embrace them.
There's so much that I want to say to you.
You're the only one in the world with enough wisdom and gentleness to understand.
If only it was somebody else's story and not mine.
As it is, you're the only one in the world that I can never tell. Never never.
Because even if I waited until we were old, old people and told you then,
you'd be bound to look back over the years and be hurt.
And my dear, I don't want you to be hurt.
Birds sing after a storm. Why shouldn't people feel as free to delight in whatever sunlight remains to them?
-Rose kennedy
Faith is universal. Our specific methods for understanding it are arbitrary. Some of us pray to Jesus, some of us go to Mecca, some of us study subatomic particles. In the end we are all just searching for truth, that which is greater than ourselves.
I kinda just wanna run away. Not because things are bad, or because there is something to run from, just because there is nothing in particular keeping me here.
The difference between fiction and reality? Fiction has to make sense.
-Tom clancy
The saddest kind of sad, is the sad that tries not to be sad. You know when sad tries to bite it's lip and not cry and smile and say, No, I'm happy for you? That's when it's really sad.
Forgiving does not erase the bitter past. A healed memory is not a deleted memory. Instead, forgiving what we cannot forget creates a new way to remember. We change the memory of our past into a hope for our future.
-Lewis B. Smedes
If you could hear me, I would tell you, that our fingerprints don't fade from the lives we've touched.
Because you're young, you're torn between a
world of hate and a world of dreams.
So much to lose, so much to gain,
so much to fight for, so much to change
too many people miss the silver lining
because theyre expecting gold.
Listen to the mustn'ts, child.
Listen to the don'ts .
Listen to the shouldn'ts,
The impossibles,
The won'ts.
Listen to the never haves,
Then listen close to me...
Anything can happen, child.
Anything can be.
- Shel Silverstein
You don't write because you want to say something, you write because you have something to say.
-F Scott Fitzgerald
If we can forgive what's been done to us. . .
If we can forgive what we've done to others. . .
If we can leave all of our stories behind. Our being villains or victims.
Only then, maybe, can we rescue the world.
And the truth is, sometimes you can prepare for something, be sure it’s the right choice, and yet still wake up one day, look around you, and think, “I made a mistake.”
We all lead secret lives, even if only in our heads.
Nostalgia - It’s a twinge in your heart far more powerful than memory alone. This device isn’t a spaceship, it’s a time machine. It goes backwards, and forwards… it takes us to a place where we ache to go again. It’s not called the wheel, it’s called the carousel. It let’s us travel the way a child travels - around and around, and back home again, to a place where we know are loved.
Don't stress the could haves. If it should have, it would have.
Sometimes, you'll never know the true value of a moment until it becomes a memory.
Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day.
Pretending that feelings aren't there doesn't make them go away.
“Peace is not something you wish for; It's something you make, Something you do, Something you are, And something you give away.”
Don't let the sadness of your past and the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present.
Her face was as lovely as the first rain of the summer;
her heart could hold gently the pain of the world.
All my life, I always wanted to fly. I always wanted to live like a hawk. I know you're not supposed to be jealous of anything, but...to take flight, to soar above everything and everyone... now, that's living. But a hawk is no good around normal birds ... it can't fit in. Even though all the other birds probably wanna be hawks ... they hate him for what they can't be.
God, I've had a lot of things come against me. Life hasn't treated me fairly. I'm off to a rough start.
But, God, I know You're a good God.
I know You have a great plan for my life. So I'm asking You to bless me indeed.
One day someone will come to you and rock you tightly in her arms.
Please remember this when you drop your guard, nobody has an unbreakable heart.
From an angels wing to a fallen star,
God makes everything but unbreakable hearts
"Every day the opportunity exists to change your life. But most days, the idea of having to change the big things in life just seems like too much work. Should I lie on the couch and watch a movie, or should I confront my personal demons? You get the point."
"One is taught by experience to put a premium on those few people who can appreciate you for what you are."
"I looked in all the places you aren’t. I just can’t find the places you are. I only know that you are where I am not."
-Winnie the Pooh
"But somewhere, there is a beach that time cannot reach. Where everyone and everything has always been and never was. And perhaps, you are there waiting for me. In that place, time cannot touch."
"Memory is a giggling sprite and will not be tamed. She takes flight the moment the present becomes the past."
"You spend your whole life in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and oh how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present."
Time doesn't always heal. It just breathes and swallows memories.
You smoke a little more every morning, and drink a little more every afternoon, and need a little more sedative every night. You’re beginning to feel unnecessary too.
The damage was permanent; there would always be scars. But even the angriest scars faded over time until it was difficult to see them written on the skin at all and the only thing that remained was the memory of how painful it had been.
And I know that you're busy too, I know that you care. You got your finger on the pulse, you got your eyes everywhere. And it hurts all the time when you don't return my calls, and you haven't got the time to remember how it was.
So fuck you, and your untouchable face. And fuck you for existing in the first place. And who I am, that I should be dying for your touch. And who I am, I bet you can't even tell me that much.
"I've spent a life time looking for the truth, and I have become the lie. Maybe some secrets should just stay secret."
And I pictured myself up in your face and then I pictured myself walking away. But it never seemed to go that way. That's so much easier than what I've got to say. And if this is supposed to be something more, then kindly explain what all the pain is for.
"Some of them hang onto my heart by a thread, pulling me deeper into oblivion. And some are just scars, a story or time that had been forgotten, mixed in with all the rest. Dazed and confused, I try and remember the exact moment I got the scar. It's impossible. Memories, like myself, free-fall into oblivion to be forgotten."
It was a long time ago in a place I wish I could leave behind. I was stronger then, everything was different about me. Everything was different about us. Seems that your smile left an imprint on me. Your hand is carved into the shape of my hand, and I wish you’d place it where it belongs. Come back. Why’d you leave me here all alone? I’m all alone.
I don't know what to say to you. Except that I am going to miss you. All I know is that you meant more to me than anyone else ever did or ever will. But if she loves you better than I do, then go, I can't stop you, go.
I used to have this image of my life. It wasn't perfection, it wasn't amazing. It was just happiness. I saw myself smiling, I saw my wishes granted. They weren't even far fetched wishes. But now they're lost forever. I threw them all away, when you threw me away.
Words are getting in the way, sentences strung along with muddled up hope. All the hope spills from deep inside of my stomach. When you stare back at me with that blank look on your face, I know that I will never get that hope back again.
In that moment I learned a lot more than one can imagine. I learned how many things can change in just a short year. And how everything I thought about someone could be turned around to hate and anger. How no matter how many promises are spoken, it’s never the truth that was said.
You make it sound so easy to be alive. But tell me how am I supposed to seize this day when everything inside of me has died?
Forget this wasted year, these wasted years. Devoted friends, they disappear and I'm sorry about the phone call and needing you, some decisions you don't make. I guess it's just like breathing and not wanting to. There are some things you can't fake. I guess that it's typical to cling to memories you'll never get back again and to sort through old photographs of a summer long ago or a friend that you used to know and there below, his frozen face, you wrote the name and that ancient date and you can't believe that he's really gone, when all that's left is a fucking song and I'm sorry about the phone call and waking you. I know that it is late, but thank you for talking, because I need to. Some things just can't wait.
It’s four in the morning and I’m turning in my bed. I wish I had a dream or a nightmare in my head, so I drop my imagination and get some sleeping done. Now it’s five in the morning and I’m wishing it was one.
"I'm sorry if you miss me. I'm sorry I don't care. I was just a crutch for your loneliness, your heart was never really there. I'm sorry that I wasted so much of my time, time that I could have spent with someone else; would have meant less of you and all your lies."
"I'm not looking for love between my sheets, because love is known to wear and tear. Just a checkmark on the months and weeks, and I don't care, if you don't care."
"I find the older I get, the more I hate myself. My lungs are filled with self-loathing and regret, that's all I breathe in. The carbon-dioxide I'm letting go is happiness. Soon, the sunshine will die completely. So, I'm asking you to stay in one last attempt to fix this. In one last attempt to make you fall for me again."
I mean you lie about being fine for so long, eventually, you're going to wake up one day and realize, you are, in fact, fine. That's what I always thought. And like I have been a million times, I was wrong."
I wish you would just open your eyes & see what you`re losing. I mean ; it`s me. The person you felt you could "stay with forever." & of course, I wonder what happened. What person wouldn`t? But I just wonder if you even think about making it better? We both screwed up ; a lot, but I can`t forgive you for what you did. You didn`t even make an attempt on making it better. You just let me go.
I don't expect the world to treat me fairly. I don't expect people to be reasonsible or keep their promises. I realize cruelty and catastrophe are part of living, and that with every good thing there must also be a bad. I don't believe in perfection or true love. I'm never surprised by anything or anyone. I think people do the best that they can, everything they could; but that doesn't always mean it was everything they should. We are all broken in our own, little ways. Ideals and hopes are guidlines. I don't hold on to much, because in the end, you're always forced to let go.
I thought I'd write, I thought I'd let you know in the year since you've been gone I've finally let you go. And I hope you find some time to drop a note. But if you won't, then you won't. And I will consider you gone. I know that you went straight to someone else. While I worked through all these things by myself. And I think that you should spend some time alone, but if you won't, then you won't.
What’s worse than wanting something you can’t have? It’s not knowing what you want. Wishing on all the stars in the sky for the answers to your questions, for something to believe in… someone to hold. Having absolutely no control over yourself, being caught up in a place you wish you were miles away from. Being stuck somewhere between the past and the future, nowhere near where you should be - in the present. Stuck in yesterdays and tomorrows, so far from home, far from everything you know and love. The uncertainty could just tear you to bits.
There's a story behind every person. There's a reason why they're the way they are. They aren't just like that because they want to. Something in the past created them, and sometimes it's impossible to fix.
You know what? Yes I Have changed. I'm not as nice as I used to be, because I don't want to get used or walked over, I don't trust everyone and tell them my secrets , because behind every fake smile is a backstabbing bitch. I distance myself from people because in the end, they're only going to leave. I Have changed because I have realized that im the only person I can depend on.
The fact that I occasionally talk to you is one thing. But to think we're at the same place we were before is wrong. You ruined that, you should know you can't say some of those things and think everything is okay again. You admitted that you push people away, and I think it's your expectations and self-righteous standards that often make you hypocritical.
i think everyone has a certain part of their lives where they truly wish they could freeze time. whether it was three years ago, today or still to come, whether it was just a moment, a day or a whole summer. everyone has a time in their life where they wish everything would just stop. the world would stop turning and people would stop changing. because to them, at that time, everything is perfect.
I’m feeling no relief in my head, just doubt.
but my heart keeps telling me “hold your ground
you’ll never learn a thing if you bail out now.”
and I’m lonely again tonight
I can feel it like a knot in my side
they keep saying this is part of the ride
but I’m not getting any stronger
Its just, the lines, they get so blurry, between what is once, and now required. and I don't know on what side his heart falls but I know where mine is buried.\
I'm trying real hard not to shake,
I'm biting my tongue,
But I'm feeling alive and with every breath that I take,
I feel like I've won.
You're my key to survival.
But it's no use going back to yesterday,
because I was a different person then.
+ Alice in Wonderland
The more I look around and listen,
I realize that I'm not alone. We are
all facing choices that define us. No
choice, however messy, is without
importance in the overall picture of
our lives. We all at our own age have
to claim something, even if it's only
our own confusion. I am in the middle
of growing up and into myself.
You've left me with such a silent world.
The evenings are calm but I'm restless,
and my breath has become as thin as
the wind. Not even the mighty sky can
fill the space you left behind, not even
when it rains.
The biggest problem is getting beyond the “you can’t” syndrome.
The moment you figure that out, you’re on your way to flying.
Anyone who cannot see problems around him or herself is utterly
blind. All the problems sitting there are an invitation for you to
be creative, make use of your skills and resources and find a solution.
Of course you can do it. It doesn’t require brilliance. It’s just
giving yourself permission and then being persistent. Persistent
in seeing the problem or opportunity and persistent in thinking
about it until you have come up with some interesting ideas that
might change the pattern. It’s really a mindset, not anything in
the objective world — that is the problem."
++Bill Drayton
"Today is a winding road
That's taking me to places
That I didn't want to go.
Today, in the blink of an eye
I'm holding onto something
And I do not know why I tried."
+ "Thunder," Boys Like Girls
I told a lie, so we could both go our own ways.
Looking at the sky and how the colors on your face painted me an image filled with fear, and lined with grace.
Maybe someday we'll come back to this place.
"Tonight, you'll fall harder than ever
As all your hope hangs on a wire
Tonight, you'll see farther and clearer
The horizon's still a mystery."
+ "Catch Your Breath," by Oh So Cavalier
I saw you watching the stars,
and I caught you wanting them all.
Desire can change who you are.
You're so much better off when
nothing weighs you down.
+ "Casting Off" ; This Beautiful Republic
"You don't have to be a "person of influence" to be influential. In fact, the most influential people in my life are probably not even aware of the things they've taught me."
"Well i'm sorry for disappointing you.
but i'm done, with being up and down and pushed around.
no more."
"And even if somebody else has it much worse, that really doesnt change the fact that you have what you have."
-The Perks of Being a Wallflower
"You're going to come across people in your life who say all the right words at all the right times. but in the end, it's always their actions, not words, that matter."
"are you doing what you're doing today because
it's what you want to do, or because it's what
you were doing yesterday?
"Give me something to live for,
and I promise I won't give up."
"you may see me struggle,
but you will never see me fall."
"the nicest thing about the rain, is it evenutally stops."
-eeyore
"maybe i'm angry, cause i'm the one who's always wrong.
could you live without me, did you really ever have a doubt.
but do you understand baby, when you say it's over. it's done."
"life get's so much more confusing, when you know what you're losing."
"i would have never asked more from you then to care about me."
"the days drag on, the nights last forever.
everyday it’s tougher just to keep it together."
"I get the feeling that lately
nothing ever really lasts."
"You can't waste time over missing something in the past. Life changes, people grow up and grow apart, and you accept that. Yet you still can't stop thinking of how good it used to be; afraid you'll never experience it again, afraid you've already lived it and already lost it."
"sometimes, all we need is the knowledge that the other person keeps you in their thoughts, and that they care."
"and i don't know how to be fine when i'm not.
cause i don't know how to make a feeling stop."
"Life is a struggle, with everyday obstacles. We are always trying to make up for the things we lack. We need to hold on to everything and everyone that has once stepped foot on our hearts. For the impact, if ever so small, has gotten us here. To this."
"Don't be so quick to judge me,
you only see what I choose to show."
"maybe all i ever wanted was for you to care. just remotely.
and i don't really see anything wrong with that. with wanting
someone to care."
"don't tell me that you're sorry. i'm so passed the things you say
that you don't mean. and i mean it when i say, don't ever talk to me again.
you hurt me. you deliberately hurt me. Put yourself in my shoes."
"you have to accept that people
are going to stay in our hearts
even if they are out of our lives."
I'm sorry for the way you look at me...
I'm sorry for the life you've taken away from me...
I'm sorry for the scars on my arms...
I'm sorry for the pain everyone feels...
but most of all...
I'm sorry I'm alive...
we're crashing into the unknown;
we're lost in this, but it feels like home.
I live in the clouds.
Reality is not for me.
People say i should come down.
That the clouds are not a place for grown ups to be.
I smile at them.
Maybe one day, i say maybe one day i will come down.
But i never will.
Reality is not for me.
I shall stay up here.
The view is quite breathtaking.
if i'm not here tomorrow,
would you understand why i left you this way.
cause if i'm not here tomorrow..
it doesn't mean i didn't want to stay.
i wish i could disappear, unzip my skin and leave it here.
so i could be no one again and let nobody, i'd let nobody, i'd let nobody in.
"we are all part of something bigger.
and we are all part of it together."
"being able to survive it, doesn't mean it was ever okay."
"A wise man once said 'you can have anything in life if you're willing to sacrifice everything else for it.' What he meant is, nothing comes without a price. so before you go into battle, you better decide how much you're willing to lose. Too often, going after what feels good means, letting go of what you know is right, and letting someone in means abandoning the walls you've spent a lifetime building. of course, the toughest sacrifices are the ones we don't see coming, when we don't have time to come up with a strategy to pick a side or to measure the potential loss. When that happens, when the battle chooses us and not the other way around, that's when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear." - Grey's Anatomy.
"i just wanna go home. i've got to go home.
let me go home, i'm just too far from where you are."
"it's like all of the bad stuff that you went through, that you hated along the way; the people who disappointed you, the things that didn't go the way you wanted; suddenly you feel grateful for them, because those are the things that got you here, to this."
- The Perfect Man
"Never knowing. Shocking but we're nothing. We're just moments. We're Clever but we're clueless.We're just human.Amusing but confusing.We're trying but where is this all leading."
"Blame it on the weather,
but i'm a mess."
"death is not the greatest loss in life. the greatest loss is what dies
inside us while we live."
"here i am, on the edge
and i can't, fight the past.
it's so easy looking down.
just let it go. just let me go."
"when you told me the things i said i didn't want to hear
it tore me apart. well i want you to know that i don't give
a fuck, and that yeah, you ripped me apart. But you have
no idea how good it feels to walk away from you."
"you're a little late, i'm already torn."
"And this is about as social as I get now.
And I'm throwing away the letters that I am writing you
Cause they would never do,
I would never do."
"Sometimes i wonder
Why i work so hard to guard my heart
Till i hardly feel anything at all
I've spent my whole life building up this ivory tower
And now that im in it, i keep wishing it would fall
So i could feel the ground beneath me
Really taste the air im breathin'
And know that im alive."
"you decide. no one else. you make your life decisions.
you fuck up, it's your fault. you choose where and what
you want to do with your life. no one else."
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you,
holding you tonight."
Would it be okay if I walked away and never came back?
Because the days are getting longer...
... and it's becoming so much harder.
"I didn't say all the things I wanted to say,
and I can't get back what you've taken away."
"love your enemies, do good to those who hate you,
bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you."
+Luke 6:27-28
A poem begins with a lump in the throat, a home-sickness or a love-sickness. It is a reaching-out toward expression; an effort to find fulfillment. A complete poem is one where the emotion has found its thought and the thought has found the words."
-Robert Frost
And I wonder
If I was a mistake
I might have nowhere left to go
But I know that I cannot go home
These words are strapped inside my head
Tell me to run before I'm dead
Chase the rainbows in my mind
And I will try to stay alive
Maybe the world will know one day
Sentimental days
In a misty clouded haze
Of a memory that now feels untrue
I used to feel disguised
Now I leave the mask behind
Painting pictures that aren't so blue
The pages I've turned are the lessons I've learned
For he orders his angels to protect you wherever you go. Psalm 91:11
There's some things that I regret,
Some words I wish had gone unsaid,
Some starts that had some bitter endings,
Been some bad times I've been through,
Damage I cannot undo,
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
One minute you laugh
The next minute you're slowly sinking into something black
I get the feeling that lately nothing ever really lasts
I keep trying to get up but I keep falling back
And you love, and you hate, and you wait
Cause one minute goes fast
And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me
It turns out,
you can't save people from themselves.
[scrubs]
No matter how deep the stain of your sins. I can remove it. I can make you as clean as freshly fallen snow. Isaiah 1:18
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Youre a little late, Im already torn
Meredith: [narrating] In the hospital, we see addiction every day. It's shocking how many kinds of addiction exist. It would be too easy if it were just drugs and booze and cigarettes. I think the hardest part of kicking a habit is wanting to kick it. I mean, we get addicted for a reason, right? Often, too often, things that start out as just a normal part of your life at some point cross the line to obsessive, compulsive, out of control. It's the high we're chasing, the high that makes everything else fade away.
Moments. That's
all you get with
the people you love.
- Grey's Anatomy
We all honor heroes for different reasons.
Sometimes for their bravery, sometimes for their daring,
sometimes for their goodness, but mostly we honor heroes
because at one point or another we all dream of being rescued.
Of course, if the right hero doesn’t come along,
sometimes we just have to rescue ourselves.
"I know it sounds hard to believe but once you
stop fighting it and accept it as a part of you;
it's not such a bad thing.
It will still hurt, it will still tear you apart.
but in a different way; a more intimate way.
You can use it. It's yours. It belongs to you.
But the pain you're feeling now doesn't last forever.
It can't, it hurts too much. You can't live with that much pain -
not forever, your body can't take it. Your mind can't take it.
It knows that if you don't get over it, it's going to kill you.
And it doesn't want that. So it makes you get over it but
getting over it doesn't mean forgetting it.
It doesn't mean betraying your feelings, it just means
reducing the pain to a tolerable level; a level that doesn't destroy you.
I know that right now, the idea of getting over it is unimaginable.
It's impossible, inconceivable, unthinkable.
You don't want to get over it.
Why should you? It's all you've got.
You don't want kind words, you don't care
what other people think or say.
They are not you, are they? They can't feel what you feel.
You and me, we don't want anything.
We want to die, but life won't let us. We're all it’s got."
And I'm not sad.
I just want to trust someone so badly.
I just want something beautiful to happen here, right now.
"There’s nowhere you can be
That isn’t where you’re meant to be…”
keeping to yourself is no way to live. You can't fight
what's coming;; All that you can do is sit back and realize,
we will be there because you keep waiting for someone
to save you.
"the truth is i've never fooled anyone. i've let people
fool themselves. they didn't bother to find out who
and what i was. instead they would invent a character
for me. i wouldn't argue with them. they were obviously
loving somebody i wasn't."
- marilyn monroe
You'll see when you move out it just sort of happens one day
one day and it's just gone. And you can never get it back. It's
like you get homesick for a place that doesn't exist. I mean it's
like this rite of passage, you know. You won't have this feeling
again until you create a new idea of home for yourself,
you know, for your kids, for the family you start, it's like a cycle
or something. I miss the idea of it. Maybe that's all family really is.
A group of people who miss the same imaginary place.
-Garden State
We cut ourselves off from hoping for the best because
to many times the best doesn’t happen. But every now
and then something extraordinary occurs and suddenly
best case scenarios seem possible. And every now and
then something amazing happens, and against our better
judgment we start to have hope
-grey’s anatomy
We may not be as happy as you always dreamed we would be, but for the first time, let's just allow ourselves to be whatever it is we are and that will be better.
-garden state
learn from the mistakes of the past ,
move on with the future
take what you got ,
love what you had,
dont dwell on what you've lost ,
love what you've learned
everything changes eventually. thats just the
way life is. and you have no control over it.
suddenly people you thought would always be
there disappear. people die, they move away,
& they grow up.
-dawsons creek
It was becoming clear to me that i shouldn't become
too attached to anything; Turn your back….and you
lose it. Just like that.
-The truth about forever
Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well,
but you make this hard on me
the worst thing isn’t missing someone
it’s missing who you thought they were
We're all pretty bizarre, some of us are just
better at hiding it than others.
- Breakfast Club
Sometimes pain becomes such a big part of your
life that you expect it to always be there. Cause
you can`t remember a time in your life when it
wasn`t. But then one day you feel something else.
Something that feels wrong only cause it`s so
unfamiliar. & in that moment, you realize you`re happy.
And all the roads we have to walk along are
winding And all the lights that lead us there
are blinding, There are many things that I
would, Like to say to you but I don't know
how
all any of us can want is more time
time to stand up, time to grow up,
time to let go
you pull back your curtains
and the sun burns into your eyes.
you watch a plane flying across a clear blue sky.
this is the day your life will surely change.
this is the day when things fall into place.
she’s barely hanging on but she knows
she can’t let go because there’s so many
people waiting for her to fail. she was sad
but refused to cry. she wont open up,
she wont let anyone inside.
she's crying herself to sleep every night,
til her eyes shut and find better times.
she wakes when she dreams,
sleeps when she wakes.
shes slipping, she knows it.
her insecurities are getting the better of her.
one more disappointment and
she knows she isn't going to make it.
so lets make a promise.
promise you wont break her,
and she promises not to fall.
so tonight your hopes fall
and break the molds of fate.
your tear ducts run dry, you're bleeding all this paint.
so take back your lies and hold them all inside,
just tell me the truth, atleast for just one night.
the city is making me sick, and the season's getting colder.
and it's not helping now that we're growing so much older.
in all this monotony, oh darling it's getting to me.
and how do they expect for me to plan out my life so precisely?
and all this negativity, you know it's getting to me.
i just don't understand why we all can't run away.
Seeing you today made me realize just how far apart we've got. I hesitated
too long to say hello, even though I should have. I wanted to see
how you were doing but we are strangers now. You don't know me anymore.
Maybe you don't even want to. But it's okay, things are just different now.
I'm telling you this because you didn't ask. I've got it all here, growing
like a tumor in my throat. I'm telling you because if I don't, I will choke on it.
Everybody knows what happened but nobody asks.
in your life, you meet people. some you never think
about again. some, you wonder what happened to
them. there are some that you wonder if they ever
think about you. and then, there are some that you
wish you never had to think about again but you still do.
after a while you get sick of caring and
you're too hurt to fight. sometimes, no
matter what you do, things won't be alright.
"You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, even months analyzing a situation trying to put the pieces together, justifyin' what could've, should've, or would've happened. Or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move on."
"You don't have to be a "person of influence" to be influential. In fact, the most influential people in my life are probably not even aware of the things they've taught me."