___There's always going to be somebody who will take away your dignity and self esteem.
Just never let them take your voice.
Some people are lonely for all the right reasons
Grudges are a waste of perfect happiness. Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change.
Remember: everyone that you meet is afraid of something, loves something, and has lost something.
we all need something we consider getting upin the morning for, whether its real or not.healthy or destructive, tangible or false,all irrelevant. when you've got nothing to hang onto, deception can seem ever so inviting.
"Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself."
He said why put a new address
On the same old loneliness
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
Now talking's just a waste of breath
And living's just a waste of death
And why put a new address
On the same old loneliness
The important thing is not to be bitter
over life's disappointments.
Learn to let go of the past, and recognize
that every day won't be sunny.
And when you find yourself lost
in the darkness of despair, remember,
it's only in the black of night that
you see the stars, and those
stars lead you back home.
He who is drowned is not troubled by the rain.
- - Chinese Proverb
I think that really is the worst kind of pain,
you know, guilt is bad, sadness is bad,
but regret is this sickly combination of both.
Once the stone
You're crawling under
Is lifted off your shoulders
Once the cloud that's raining
Over your head disappears
The noise that you'll hear
Is the crashing down of hollow years
If you just hold on, just find the courage to face another day, someone will find you and make it all okay. Because we need a little help sometimes; someone who will help us hear the music in their world to remind us that it won't always be this way.
If you think you know enough
to know you know you've had enough.
And if you think you don't you probably will.
Well, it would've been, could've been worse than you would ever know.
It honestly was beautifully done
Like trying to hide the daylight from the sun
But even if we had been sure enough it's true we really didn't know
Even if we knew which way to head but still we probably wouldn't go
I could have my mind erased
And still not know exactly what I don't already know
I was knocking on your ear's door but you were always out
Looking towards the future
We were begging for the past
Well we knew we had the good things
But those never seemed to last
Our ideas held no water
But we used them like a dam
Oh, and we carried it all so well
As if we got a new position
Oh, and I laugh all the way to hell
Saying yes, this is a fine promotion
Oh, and I laugh all the way to hell
We were certainly uncertain
At least I'm pretty sure I am
Instead we're the people that we wanted to know
And we're the places that we wanted to go
Always asking a question
And I don't want to know
Like the wind across strings
That had finally let go
And the people you love
But you didn't quite know
They're the places that you wanted to go
Your body may be gone, I'm gonna carry you in.
In my head, in my heart, in my soul.
And maybe we'll get lucky and we'll both live again.
Well I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. Don't think so.
We were aiming for the moon. We were shooting at the stars.
But the kids were just shooting at the busses and the cars.
We are hummingbirds who are just not going to move.
And there's good news for people who love bad news.
We are hummingbirds who've lost the plot and we well not move.
We have great news for anyone who loves bad news.
Well see what you wanna see. You should see it all.
Well take what you want from me. You deserve it all.
Nine times out of ten our hearts just get dissolved.
Well I want a better place or just a better way to fall.
Shouts from both sides,
"Well we've got the land but they've got the view!"
If life's not beautiful without the pain,
well I'd just rather never ever even see beauty again.
For every good deed done there is a crime committed.
We are fixed.
For every step ahead we could have just been seated.
We are fixed.
Everyone's a building burning
with no one to put the fire out.
Standing at the window looking out,
waiting for time to burn us down.
Everyone's an ocean drowning
with no one really to show how.
They might get a little better air
if they turned themselves into a cloud.
All them eager actors gladly taking credit
for the lines created by the people tucked away from sight
is just a window from the room we're bound to.
If you find a way out, oh would you just let me know how?
Would you just let me know how?
I didn't die and I ain't complainin'.
I ain't blamin' you.
I didn't know that the words you said to me
Meant more to me than they ever could you.
I didn't lie and I ain't sayin'
I told the whole truth.
I didn't know that this game we were playin'
Even had a set of rules.
we're all indifferent in our own ways
So lonely but never alone I know
I'm at my house but I wish that I were at home
Sit and think for a while and you'll realize that you'll still die.
If you're not thinking at all I'm not sure why you're alive.
The universe is shaped exactly like the earth if you go straight long enough you'll end up where you were
Everyone's life ends, but no one ever completes it
I wanna live in a city with no friends or family
I'm gonna look out the window of my color T.V.
I wanna remember to remember to forget you forgot me
I'm gonna look out the window of my color T.V.
Through the cracks in the wall
Slow motion for all
Dripped out of the bars
Someone smart said nothin' at all
In the last second of life, they're gonna show you how
How they run this show, sure, run it into the ground
The stars are projectors, yeah
Projectin' our lives down to this planet Earth
Right wing, left wing, chicken wing
It's built on findin' the easier ways through
Was there a need for creation?
That was hiden in a math equation
And that's this:
WHERE DO CIRCLES BEGIN?
Everyone wants two of them
And half of everyone else who's around
Its been agreed, the whole world stinks
So no ones taking showers anymore
Everyone's afraid of their own life
If you could be anything you want
I bet you'd be disappointed, am I right?
No one really knows the ones they love
If you knew everything they thought
I bet that you'd wish that they'd just shut up
Well, you were the dull sound of sharp math
When you were alive
I know where you're from, but where do you belong?
All this talkin' all the time and the air fills up, up, up
Until there's nothin' left to breathe
And you think you feel most everything
And we know that our hearts are just made out of strings
To be pulled, strings to be pulled
So you think you've figured out everything
But we know that our minds are just made out of strings
To be pulled, strings to be pulled
All this talkin' all the time and the air fills up, up, up
Until there's nothing left to breathe
Up until there's nothin' left to speak.
Up until the better parts of space
On a plane, I can see the tiny lights below
And oh my God, they look so alone
Do they really feel anything?
The universe works on a math equation
that never even ever really even ends in the end
Infinity spirals out creation
We're on the tip of its tongue, and it is saying
We ain't sure where you stand
You ain't machines and you ain't land
I'm going nowhere, but I'm guaranteed to be late
I remind myself not to cry.
Smile and hold my head up high.
Broken by all that never really mattered.
Bit my tongue every day.
Because there are words still left to say.
So I'll wipe each tear from my eye....
And remember... I'm not supposed to cry
A million words wouldnt bring you back,
i know because I tried.
Neither would a million tears,
I know because ive cried
you can't keep dwelling on every
moment that slipped by because
with every sunset comes a sunrise
we don't know or care where we go
just turn up that radio
we'll sing along to all our favorite songs
and hope these interstates will go
on and on and on...
I'm not wishing terrible things on you.
I hope you stay safe, & I hope that people you are with
care about you. I want you to be happy,
& I want you to be doing what you love.
But I'd like you to never forget me.
I'm not the girl I used to be.
I've got to admit it,
A lot of you got to me.
I don't believe in the word "regret"
I believe in the phrase;
"you screwed up and now you learned from it."
There's a story behind everything.
How a picture got on a wall.
How a scar got on your face.
Sometimes the stories are simple,
& sometimes they are hard & heartbreaking.
"Be kind to unkind people - they need it the most."
Without faith a man can do nothing; with it all things
are possible.- Sir William Osler
more than anything, all i wanted was to be
close to someone. all that i ever wanted
really was to feel like somehow, i'm not alone..
do you ever get this feeling where you don't
want to talk to anybody, you don't want to
smile and you don't want to fake being happy.
but, you don't really know what's wrong?
Let us love, not in word or speech, but in deed and truth.
- 1 John 3:18
She said life’s a lot to think about sometimes
When you’re living in between the lines
And all the stars are sparkling, shine everyday
He said life’s so hard to move in sometimes
When it feels like I’m in the line
And no one even cares to ask me why I feel this way
The Road goes ever on and on
Down from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
And I must follow, if I can,
Pursuing it with eager feet,
Until it joins some larger way
Where many paths and errands meet.
And whither then? I cannot say.
-J. R. R. Tolkien
Frodo: I wish none of this had happened.
Gandalf: So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time given us.
One naked star has waded through
The purple shadows of the night,
And faltering as falls the dew
It drips its misty light.
you can find good in anyone, if you give them a chance.
sometimes people dissapoint you, sometimes they suprise you.
but you never really get to know them, until you
listen to what's in their heart.
"Do not let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity." - 1 Timothy 4:12
Everybody’s talking
But they don’t say a thing
They look at me with sad eyes
But I don’t want the sympathy
Its cool you didn’t want me
Sometimes you can’t go back
Buy why’d you have to go and make a mess like that
"Fake people don't stand a chance in this world."
I can remember the very first time I cried
How I wiped my eyes and buried the pain inside
All of my memories - good and bad - that's past
Didn't even take the time to realize
Starin' at the cracks in the walls
Cuz I'm waiting for it all to come to an end
Still I curl up right under the bed
Cuz its takin' over my head all over again
I know it's hard on a rainy day
you want to shut the world out and just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith
Looks like I made a mess again
Heartbreak everywhere I step
This fire is getting hot again
But I touch the flame 'cause I'm a curious cat
Creeping where I don't belong
Finding out what I knew all along
Crying all alone
And it's all my fault
have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that person was too afraid to let you ? too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care as much, or at all. have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? we tell lies when we are afraid, afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. but every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger
Hold on, baby, you're losing it.
The water's high, you're jumping into it,
and letting go... and no one knows.
You cry, but you don't tell anyone.
That you might not be the golden one.
And you're tied together with a smile,
but you're coming undone..
I slept, and dreamed that life was Beauty;
I woke, and found that life was Duty.
Was thy dream then a shadowy lie?
Toil on, poor heart, unceasingly;
And thou shalt find thy dream to be
A truth and noonday light to thee.
Looking' for the right track
Always on the wrong track
But are you catching' all these tracks
that I'm laying' down for you?
There's a song I was listening to, up all night
There's a voice I'm hearing
saying it's alright
When I'm happy I am sad,
but everything's good
It's not that complicated
I'm just misunderstood
Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.
- Psalms 119:105
So how can I ever try to be better?
Nobody ever lets me in
I can still see you, this ain't the best view
On the outside looking in
"You have to accept that people
are going to stay in our hearts
even if they are out of our lives."
I'm sorry for the way you look at me...
I'm sorry for the life you've taken away from me...
I'm sorry for the scars on my arms...
I'm sorry for the pain everyone feels...
but most of all...
I'm sorry I'm alive...
We're crashing into the unknown;
we're lost in this, but it feels like home.
I live in the clouds.
Reality is not for me.
People say i should come down.
That the clouds are not a place for grown ups to be.
I smile at them.
Maybe one day, i say maybe one day i will come down.
But i never will.
Reality is not for me.
I shall stay up here.
The view is quite breathtaking.
If i'm not here tomorrow,
would you understand why i left you this way.
cause if i'm not here tomorrow..
it doesn't mean i didn't want to stay.
I wish i could disappear, unzip my skin and leave it here.
so i could be no one again and let nobody, i'd let nobody, i'd let nobody in.
"We are all part of something bigger.
and we are all part of it together."
"Being able to survive it, doesn't mean it was ever okay."
"A wise man once said 'you can have anything in life if you're willing to sacrifice everything else for it.' What he meant is, nothing comes without a price. so before you go into battle, you better decide how much you're willing to lose. Too often, going after what feels good means, letting go of what you know is right, and letting someone in means abandoning the walls you've spent a lifetime building. of course, the toughest sacrifices are the ones we don't see coming, when we don't have time to come up with a strategy to pick a side or to measure the potential loss. When that happens, when the battle chooses us and not the other way around, that's when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear." - Grey's Anatomy.
"i just wanna go home. i've got to go home.
let me go home, i'm just too far from where you are."
"it's like all of the bad stuff that you went through, that you hated along the way; the people who disappointed you, the things that didn't go the way you wanted; suddenly you feel grateful for them, because those are the things that got you here, to this."
- The Perfect Man
"Never knowing. Shocking but we're nothing. We're just moments. We're Clever but we're clueless.We're just human.Amusing but confusing.We're trying but where is this all leading."
"Blame it on the weather,
but i'm a mess."
"I'm tired of being sorry."
"Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies
inside us while we live."
"Here i am, on the edge
and I can't, fight the past.
it's so easy looking down.
just let it go. just let me go."
"And this is about as social as I get now.
And I'm throwing away the letters that I am writing you
Cause they would never do,
I would never do."
"Sometimes i wonder
Why i work so hard to guard my heart
Till i hardly feel anything at all
I've spent my whole life building up this ivory tower
And now that im in it, i keep wishing it would fall
So i could feel the ground beneath me
Really taste the air im breathin'
And know that im alive."
"you decide. no one else. you make your life decisions.
you fuck up, it's your fault. you choose where and what
you want to do with your life. no one else."
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you,
holding you tonight."
"I didn't say all the things I wanted to say,
and I can't get back what you've taken away."
the things about life that i've learned is that you're going to get hurt. you're going to have emotional nights and cry yourself to sleep for hours. you're going to suffer some kind of heartbreak, some kind of loss. but you will also have those moments where you heal. those moments are the best. you feel like you smile for the first time again. you feel like you're alive again. life just kinda of restarts.
sometimes you see a person, & you wonder why you dont spend more time with that person, because theyre like one of your favorite people & then they say something & you remember why you dont.
I'm so tired but I can't sleep, standing on the edge of something much too deep, funny how you feel so much but can not say a word, We are screaming inside but can't be heard.
Come on, oh my star is fading
And I see no chance of release
And I know I'm dead on the surface
But I am screaming underneath
I fear I've wasted all my sun, I fear I've wasted all my time. Everything is faded. Smiles are fabricated now. Held my eyes closed for too long.
The closer we are to the soul, the further we are from perfection. Why settle for honesty when you can breathe a perfect lie?
"Mysteriously and in ways that are totally remote from normal experience, the gray drizzle of horror induced by depression takes on the quality of physical pain ... it is entirely natural that the victim begins to think ceaselessly of oblivion." — William Styron, Darkness Visible
"Hope is like a bird that senses the dawn and carefully starts to sing while it is still dark." — Unknown
"Trials give you strength, sorrows give understanding and wisdom." — Chuck T. Falcon
"Life is ten percent what happens to you and ninety percent how you respond to it." - Lou Holtz
"Depressed people are great strugglers, but to struggle is to drown." - Dr. Richard O'Connor, Undoing Depression
“I start to feel like I can’t maintain the facade any longer, that I may just start to show through. And I wish I knew what was wrong. Maybe something about how stupid my whole life is. I don’t know. Why does the rest of the world put up with the hypocrisy, the need to put a happy face on sorrow, the need to keep on keeping on?... I don’t know the answer, I know only that I can’t. I don't want any more vicissitudes, I don't want any more of this try, try again stuff. I just want out. I’ve had it. I am so tired. I am twenty and I am already exhausted.”— Elizabeth Wurtzel
So she keeps all her secrets and hides from her past; because everything she loved, left her way too fast.
Lay beside me, tell me what they've done
Speak the words I want to hear, to make my demons run
The door is locked now but it's opened if you're true
If you can understand the me, then I can understand the you
and you can tell
from the state of my room
that they let me out too soon
and the pills that i ate
came a couple years too late
and ive got some issues to work through
I'm living inside my own head, and it's getting pretty lonely.
I think it's time I let someone in, someone
who could really get to know me.
Sometimes you think that you can just live again.
Forget what has happened, And keep going with life
But then you realize that the past has changed you
And you can't forget that easily
I'm never going to show you how broken I am inside.
I'm never going to show you how I need you in my life.
You'll never hear me say that I miss you
Or find out that you're the reason why I cry.
You'll never catch me...
Because you'll never see me fall.
I'm just going to keep everything inside
And smile through all the pain
And even though I'm breaking down,
I'll always manage to stay sane.
I'll never show you what you want to see.
I'm never going to let you see through me
You can't force open
the petals of a rose.
When it is ready, it will
open up to you.
One of these days it all comes together. one of those days that goes on forever. think i sound crazy? maybe, whatever. what's it all about?
So, we'll go our own ways, And hopefully you'll remember these things i've told you, Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said is in sincerity. A broken heart is not what I wanted from this, But I guess i've learned from it. But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes? I don't consider this a mistake, I just wish the story didn't end this way
I felt like you and i were the greatest plan ever made, and i had nothing to do with it. being with you made me feel that, maybe i didn't have to plan anymore because it felt like i was actually living, and for once in my life i wouldn't have to work so hard at being happy, that it could just happen.
it feels so wrong that it must it must be right and im so high dont wanna come down, just let me fly
take your time, maybe we’ll grow up
but you’ll learn from what you’ve done
you might believe in what you see
but no, it never made sense to me
you chose to surrender the best thing that's happened to you. what were you missing? were you just tripping? running away from your fear was the best you could do. you made this decision, you chose our division.
I don't know why we all hang onto something we know we're better off letting go, it's like we're scared to lose what we don't even really have. some of us say we'd rather have that something than absolutely nothing but the truth is, "to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all.
At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about. some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. some things are more than what you say, they're what you do. some things you say cause there's no other choice. some things you keep to yourself. and not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves.
-greys anatomy
Maybe i wasn't asking you to love me, maybe i was asking you to understand, because for so long i've been hurt and for so long you've ignored it, and maybe it is bad timing, but maybe, i don't care. i've been here all along just waiting, waiting for you to notice, waiting for you to care. waiting for you to say that you've been waiting too, and you haven't and maybe you never will or maybe you're afraid to. but it all hurts the same, and in the end, i'm the one that's left broken and when i lay down to sleep, i'm still the one crying, so screw the bad timing. i've loved you then, like i love you now, like i probably always will.
I always believed in forever, but forever was too good to be true.
-Winnie the Pooh
A coma might feel better than this,
attempting to discover where to begin.
You're weighed down, you're full of something.
Of sickness, and desertion.
You're weighed down, you're full of something,
you're underneath it all.
All your friends seem like enemies
when you're broken down and empty.
How much would you bet
That if I tried hard enough
I would spontaneously combust
I wish I could disappear
and run away from all of my fears
I think I'm coming undone
When all your friends have come and gone,
And the sun no longer shines,
And the happiness for which you long is washed away like an ocean's tide,
When all the hard times outweigh the good,
And all your words are misunderstood,
When the day seems lost from the stars
You must follow your heart,
You must follow your heart.
If you feel you've paid the price,
And your wounds should cease to heal
And everything you love in life spins like a winding wheel.
If you should wake to find you're abandoned,
And the road you've traveled leads to a dead-end
When death creeps in to play it's part,
You must follow your heart,
You must follow your heart.
I think that there's two ways that you can view the world.
One: You can see all the sadness and everything that's behind it.
Or two: You can choose to block it all out.
I only know we loved in vain;
I only feel—farewell! farewell!.
Most of the shadows of this life
are caused by our
standing in our own sunshine.
+ + Ralph Waldo Emerson
It lies around us like a cloud--
A world we do not see;
Yet the sweet closing of an eye
May bring us there to be.
~The Other World
I don't want things to be like this anymore,
I want to talk to you, and I want to be with you.
But it seems like every time we're close,
something happens and we're right back to fighting.
And the truth is, I hate not talking to you.
If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
And the mountains should crumble to the sea
I won't cry, no I won't shed a tear
Just as long as you stand, stand by me.
"The easiest way to lose something is too want it too badly."
(Scrubs)
Just never let them take your voice.
Some people are lonely for all the right reasons
Grudges are a waste of perfect happiness. Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change.
Remember: everyone that you meet is afraid of something, loves something, and has lost something.
we all need something we consider getting upin the morning for, whether its real or not.healthy or destructive, tangible or false,all irrelevant. when you've got nothing to hang onto, deception can seem ever so inviting.
"Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself."
He said why put a new address
On the same old loneliness
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
Now talking's just a waste of breath
And living's just a waste of death
And why put a new address
On the same old loneliness
The important thing is not to be bitter
over life's disappointments.
Learn to let go of the past, and recognize
that every day won't be sunny.
And when you find yourself lost
in the darkness of despair, remember,
it's only in the black of night that
you see the stars, and those
stars lead you back home.
He who is drowned is not troubled by the rain.
- - Chinese Proverb
I think that really is the worst kind of pain,
you know, guilt is bad, sadness is bad,
but regret is this sickly combination of both.
Once the stone
You're crawling under
Is lifted off your shoulders
Once the cloud that's raining
Over your head disappears
The noise that you'll hear
Is the crashing down of hollow years
If you just hold on, just find the courage to face another day, someone will find you and make it all okay. Because we need a little help sometimes; someone who will help us hear the music in their world to remind us that it won't always be this way.
If you think you know enough
to know you know you've had enough.
And if you think you don't you probably will.
Well, it would've been, could've been worse than you would ever know.
It honestly was beautifully done
Like trying to hide the daylight from the sun
But even if we had been sure enough it's true we really didn't know
Even if we knew which way to head but still we probably wouldn't go
I could have my mind erased
And still not know exactly what I don't already know
I was knocking on your ear's door but you were always out
Looking towards the future
We were begging for the past
Well we knew we had the good things
But those never seemed to last
Our ideas held no water
But we used them like a dam
Oh, and we carried it all so well
As if we got a new position
Oh, and I laugh all the way to hell
Saying yes, this is a fine promotion
Oh, and I laugh all the way to hell
We were certainly uncertain
At least I'm pretty sure I am
Instead we're the people that we wanted to know
And we're the places that we wanted to go
Always asking a question
And I don't want to know
Like the wind across strings
That had finally let go
And the people you love
But you didn't quite know
They're the places that you wanted to go
Your body may be gone, I'm gonna carry you in.
In my head, in my heart, in my soul.
And maybe we'll get lucky and we'll both live again.
Well I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. Don't think so.
We were aiming for the moon. We were shooting at the stars.
But the kids were just shooting at the busses and the cars.
We are hummingbirds who are just not going to move.
And there's good news for people who love bad news.
We are hummingbirds who've lost the plot and we well not move.
We have great news for anyone who loves bad news.
Well see what you wanna see. You should see it all.
Well take what you want from me. You deserve it all.
Nine times out of ten our hearts just get dissolved.
Well I want a better place or just a better way to fall.
Shouts from both sides,
"Well we've got the land but they've got the view!"
If life's not beautiful without the pain,
well I'd just rather never ever even see beauty again.
For every good deed done there is a crime committed.
We are fixed.
For every step ahead we could have just been seated.
We are fixed.
Everyone's a building burning
with no one to put the fire out.
Standing at the window looking out,
waiting for time to burn us down.
Everyone's an ocean drowning
with no one really to show how.
They might get a little better air
if they turned themselves into a cloud.
All them eager actors gladly taking credit
for the lines created by the people tucked away from sight
is just a window from the room we're bound to.
If you find a way out, oh would you just let me know how?
Would you just let me know how?
I didn't die and I ain't complainin'.
I ain't blamin' you.
I didn't know that the words you said to me
Meant more to me than they ever could you.
I didn't lie and I ain't sayin'
I told the whole truth.
I didn't know that this game we were playin'
Even had a set of rules.
we're all indifferent in our own ways
So lonely but never alone I know
I'm at my house but I wish that I were at home
Sit and think for a while and you'll realize that you'll still die.
If you're not thinking at all I'm not sure why you're alive.
The universe is shaped exactly like the earth if you go straight long enough you'll end up where you were
Everyone's life ends, but no one ever completes it
I wanna live in a city with no friends or family
I'm gonna look out the window of my color T.V.
I wanna remember to remember to forget you forgot me
I'm gonna look out the window of my color T.V.
Through the cracks in the wall
Slow motion for all
Dripped out of the bars
Someone smart said nothin' at all
In the last second of life, they're gonna show you how
How they run this show, sure, run it into the ground
The stars are projectors, yeah
Projectin' our lives down to this planet Earth
Right wing, left wing, chicken wing
It's built on findin' the easier ways through
Was there a need for creation?
That was hiden in a math equation
And that's this:
WHERE DO CIRCLES BEGIN?
Everyone wants two of them
And half of everyone else who's around
Its been agreed, the whole world stinks
So no ones taking showers anymore
Everyone's afraid of their own life
If you could be anything you want
I bet you'd be disappointed, am I right?
No one really knows the ones they love
If you knew everything they thought
I bet that you'd wish that they'd just shut up
Well, you were the dull sound of sharp math
When you were alive
I know where you're from, but where do you belong?
All this talkin' all the time and the air fills up, up, up
Until there's nothin' left to breathe
And you think you feel most everything
And we know that our hearts are just made out of strings
To be pulled, strings to be pulled
So you think you've figured out everything
But we know that our minds are just made out of strings
To be pulled, strings to be pulled
All this talkin' all the time and the air fills up, up, up
Until there's nothing left to breathe
Up until there's nothin' left to speak.
Up until the better parts of space
On a plane, I can see the tiny lights below
And oh my God, they look so alone
Do they really feel anything?
The universe works on a math equation
that never even ever really even ends in the end
Infinity spirals out creation
We're on the tip of its tongue, and it is saying
We ain't sure where you stand
You ain't machines and you ain't land
I'm going nowhere, but I'm guaranteed to be late
I remind myself not to cry.
Smile and hold my head up high.
Broken by all that never really mattered.
Bit my tongue every day.
Because there are words still left to say.
So I'll wipe each tear from my eye....
And remember... I'm not supposed to cry
A million words wouldnt bring you back,
i know because I tried.
Neither would a million tears,
I know because ive cried
you can't keep dwelling on every
moment that slipped by because
with every sunset comes a sunrise
we don't know or care where we go
just turn up that radio
we'll sing along to all our favorite songs
and hope these interstates will go
on and on and on...
I'm not wishing terrible things on you.
I hope you stay safe, & I hope that people you are with
care about you. I want you to be happy,
& I want you to be doing what you love.
But I'd like you to never forget me.
I'm not the girl I used to be.
I've got to admit it,
A lot of you got to me.
I don't believe in the word "regret"
I believe in the phrase;
"you screwed up and now you learned from it."
There's a story behind everything.
How a picture got on a wall.
How a scar got on your face.
Sometimes the stories are simple,
& sometimes they are hard & heartbreaking.
"Be kind to unkind people - they need it the most."
Without faith a man can do nothing; with it all things
are possible.- Sir William Osler
more than anything, all i wanted was to be
close to someone. all that i ever wanted
really was to feel like somehow, i'm not alone..
do you ever get this feeling where you don't
want to talk to anybody, you don't want to
smile and you don't want to fake being happy.
but, you don't really know what's wrong?
Let us love, not in word or speech, but in deed and truth.
- 1 John 3:18
She said life’s a lot to think about sometimes
When you’re living in between the lines
And all the stars are sparkling, shine everyday
He said life’s so hard to move in sometimes
When it feels like I’m in the line
And no one even cares to ask me why I feel this way
The Road goes ever on and on
Down from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
And I must follow, if I can,
Pursuing it with eager feet,
Until it joins some larger way
Where many paths and errands meet.
And whither then? I cannot say.
-J. R. R. Tolkien
Frodo: I wish none of this had happened.
Gandalf: So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time given us.
One naked star has waded through
The purple shadows of the night,
And faltering as falls the dew
It drips its misty light.
you can find good in anyone, if you give them a chance.
sometimes people dissapoint you, sometimes they suprise you.
but you never really get to know them, until you
listen to what's in their heart.
"Do not let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity." - 1 Timothy 4:12
Everybody’s talking
But they don’t say a thing
They look at me with sad eyes
But I don’t want the sympathy
Its cool you didn’t want me
Sometimes you can’t go back
Buy why’d you have to go and make a mess like that
"Fake people don't stand a chance in this world."
I can remember the very first time I cried
How I wiped my eyes and buried the pain inside
All of my memories - good and bad - that's past
Didn't even take the time to realize
Starin' at the cracks in the walls
Cuz I'm waiting for it all to come to an end
Still I curl up right under the bed
Cuz its takin' over my head all over again
I know it's hard on a rainy day
you want to shut the world out and just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith
Looks like I made a mess again
Heartbreak everywhere I step
This fire is getting hot again
But I touch the flame 'cause I'm a curious cat
Creeping where I don't belong
Finding out what I knew all along
Crying all alone
And it's all my fault
have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that person was too afraid to let you ? too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care as much, or at all. have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? we tell lies when we are afraid, afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. but every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger
Hold on, baby, you're losing it.
The water's high, you're jumping into it,
and letting go... and no one knows.
You cry, but you don't tell anyone.
That you might not be the golden one.
And you're tied together with a smile,
but you're coming undone..
I slept, and dreamed that life was Beauty;
I woke, and found that life was Duty.
Was thy dream then a shadowy lie?
Toil on, poor heart, unceasingly;
And thou shalt find thy dream to be
A truth and noonday light to thee.
Looking' for the right track
Always on the wrong track
But are you catching' all these tracks
that I'm laying' down for you?
There's a song I was listening to, up all night
There's a voice I'm hearing
saying it's alright
When I'm happy I am sad,
but everything's good
It's not that complicated
I'm just misunderstood
Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.
- Psalms 119:105
So how can I ever try to be better?
Nobody ever lets me in
I can still see you, this ain't the best view
On the outside looking in
"You have to accept that people
are going to stay in our hearts
even if they are out of our lives."
I'm sorry for the way you look at me...
I'm sorry for the life you've taken away from me...
I'm sorry for the scars on my arms...
I'm sorry for the pain everyone feels...
but most of all...
I'm sorry I'm alive...
We're crashing into the unknown;
we're lost in this, but it feels like home.
I live in the clouds.
Reality is not for me.
People say i should come down.
That the clouds are not a place for grown ups to be.
I smile at them.
Maybe one day, i say maybe one day i will come down.
But i never will.
Reality is not for me.
I shall stay up here.
The view is quite breathtaking.
If i'm not here tomorrow,
would you understand why i left you this way.
cause if i'm not here tomorrow..
it doesn't mean i didn't want to stay.
I wish i could disappear, unzip my skin and leave it here.
so i could be no one again and let nobody, i'd let nobody, i'd let nobody in.
"We are all part of something bigger.
and we are all part of it together."
"Being able to survive it, doesn't mean it was ever okay."
"A wise man once said 'you can have anything in life if you're willing to sacrifice everything else for it.' What he meant is, nothing comes without a price. so before you go into battle, you better decide how much you're willing to lose. Too often, going after what feels good means, letting go of what you know is right, and letting someone in means abandoning the walls you've spent a lifetime building. of course, the toughest sacrifices are the ones we don't see coming, when we don't have time to come up with a strategy to pick a side or to measure the potential loss. When that happens, when the battle chooses us and not the other way around, that's when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear." - Grey's Anatomy.
"i just wanna go home. i've got to go home.
let me go home, i'm just too far from where you are."
"it's like all of the bad stuff that you went through, that you hated along the way; the people who disappointed you, the things that didn't go the way you wanted; suddenly you feel grateful for them, because those are the things that got you here, to this."
- The Perfect Man
"Never knowing. Shocking but we're nothing. We're just moments. We're Clever but we're clueless.We're just human.Amusing but confusing.We're trying but where is this all leading."
"Blame it on the weather,
but i'm a mess."
"I'm tired of being sorry."
"Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies
inside us while we live."
"Here i am, on the edge
and I can't, fight the past.
it's so easy looking down.
just let it go. just let me go."
"And this is about as social as I get now.
And I'm throwing away the letters that I am writing you
Cause they would never do,
I would never do."
"Sometimes i wonder
Why i work so hard to guard my heart
Till i hardly feel anything at all
I've spent my whole life building up this ivory tower
And now that im in it, i keep wishing it would fall
So i could feel the ground beneath me
Really taste the air im breathin'
And know that im alive."
"you decide. no one else. you make your life decisions.
you fuck up, it's your fault. you choose where and what
you want to do with your life. no one else."
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you,
holding you tonight."
"I didn't say all the things I wanted to say,
and I can't get back what you've taken away."
the things about life that i've learned is that you're going to get hurt. you're going to have emotional nights and cry yourself to sleep for hours. you're going to suffer some kind of heartbreak, some kind of loss. but you will also have those moments where you heal. those moments are the best. you feel like you smile for the first time again. you feel like you're alive again. life just kinda of restarts.
sometimes you see a person, & you wonder why you dont spend more time with that person, because theyre like one of your favorite people & then they say something & you remember why you dont.
I'm so tired but I can't sleep, standing on the edge of something much too deep, funny how you feel so much but can not say a word, We are screaming inside but can't be heard.
Come on, oh my star is fading
And I see no chance of release
And I know I'm dead on the surface
But I am screaming underneath
I fear I've wasted all my sun, I fear I've wasted all my time. Everything is faded. Smiles are fabricated now. Held my eyes closed for too long.
The closer we are to the soul, the further we are from perfection. Why settle for honesty when you can breathe a perfect lie?
"Mysteriously and in ways that are totally remote from normal experience, the gray drizzle of horror induced by depression takes on the quality of physical pain ... it is entirely natural that the victim begins to think ceaselessly of oblivion." — William Styron, Darkness Visible
"Hope is like a bird that senses the dawn and carefully starts to sing while it is still dark." — Unknown
"Trials give you strength, sorrows give understanding and wisdom." — Chuck T. Falcon
"Life is ten percent what happens to you and ninety percent how you respond to it." - Lou Holtz
"Depressed people are great strugglers, but to struggle is to drown." - Dr. Richard O'Connor, Undoing Depression
“I start to feel like I can’t maintain the facade any longer, that I may just start to show through. And I wish I knew what was wrong. Maybe something about how stupid my whole life is. I don’t know. Why does the rest of the world put up with the hypocrisy, the need to put a happy face on sorrow, the need to keep on keeping on?... I don’t know the answer, I know only that I can’t. I don't want any more vicissitudes, I don't want any more of this try, try again stuff. I just want out. I’ve had it. I am so tired. I am twenty and I am already exhausted.”— Elizabeth Wurtzel
So she keeps all her secrets and hides from her past; because everything she loved, left her way too fast.
Lay beside me, tell me what they've done
Speak the words I want to hear, to make my demons run
The door is locked now but it's opened if you're true
If you can understand the me, then I can understand the you
and you can tell
from the state of my room
that they let me out too soon
and the pills that i ate
came a couple years too late
and ive got some issues to work through
I'm living inside my own head, and it's getting pretty lonely.
I think it's time I let someone in, someone
who could really get to know me.
Sometimes you think that you can just live again.
Forget what has happened, And keep going with life
But then you realize that the past has changed you
And you can't forget that easily
I'm never going to show you how broken I am inside.
I'm never going to show you how I need you in my life.
You'll never hear me say that I miss you
Or find out that you're the reason why I cry.
You'll never catch me...
Because you'll never see me fall.
I'm just going to keep everything inside
And smile through all the pain
And even though I'm breaking down,
I'll always manage to stay sane.
I'll never show you what you want to see.
I'm never going to let you see through me
You can't force open
the petals of a rose.
When it is ready, it will
open up to you.
One of these days it all comes together. one of those days that goes on forever. think i sound crazy? maybe, whatever. what's it all about?
So, we'll go our own ways, And hopefully you'll remember these things i've told you, Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said is in sincerity. A broken heart is not what I wanted from this, But I guess i've learned from it. But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes? I don't consider this a mistake, I just wish the story didn't end this way
I felt like you and i were the greatest plan ever made, and i had nothing to do with it. being with you made me feel that, maybe i didn't have to plan anymore because it felt like i was actually living, and for once in my life i wouldn't have to work so hard at being happy, that it could just happen.
it feels so wrong that it must it must be right and im so high dont wanna come down, just let me fly
take your time, maybe we’ll grow up
but you’ll learn from what you’ve done
you might believe in what you see
but no, it never made sense to me
you chose to surrender the best thing that's happened to you. what were you missing? were you just tripping? running away from your fear was the best you could do. you made this decision, you chose our division.
I don't know why we all hang onto something we know we're better off letting go, it's like we're scared to lose what we don't even really have. some of us say we'd rather have that something than absolutely nothing but the truth is, "to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all.
At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about. some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. some things are more than what you say, they're what you do. some things you say cause there's no other choice. some things you keep to yourself. and not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves.
-greys anatomy
Maybe i wasn't asking you to love me, maybe i was asking you to understand, because for so long i've been hurt and for so long you've ignored it, and maybe it is bad timing, but maybe, i don't care. i've been here all along just waiting, waiting for you to notice, waiting for you to care. waiting for you to say that you've been waiting too, and you haven't and maybe you never will or maybe you're afraid to. but it all hurts the same, and in the end, i'm the one that's left broken and when i lay down to sleep, i'm still the one crying, so screw the bad timing. i've loved you then, like i love you now, like i probably always will.
I always believed in forever, but forever was too good to be true.
-Winnie the Pooh
A coma might feel better than this,
attempting to discover where to begin.
You're weighed down, you're full of something.
Of sickness, and desertion.
You're weighed down, you're full of something,
you're underneath it all.
All your friends seem like enemies
when you're broken down and empty.
How much would you bet
That if I tried hard enough
I would spontaneously combust
I wish I could disappear
and run away from all of my fears
I think I'm coming undone
When all your friends have come and gone,
And the sun no longer shines,
And the happiness for which you long is washed away like an ocean's tide,
When all the hard times outweigh the good,
And all your words are misunderstood,
When the day seems lost from the stars
You must follow your heart,
You must follow your heart.
If you feel you've paid the price,
And your wounds should cease to heal
And everything you love in life spins like a winding wheel.
If you should wake to find you're abandoned,
And the road you've traveled leads to a dead-end
When death creeps in to play it's part,
You must follow your heart,
You must follow your heart.
I think that there's two ways that you can view the world.
One: You can see all the sadness and everything that's behind it.
Or two: You can choose to block it all out.
I only know we loved in vain;
I only feel—farewell! farewell!.
Most of the shadows of this life
are caused by our
standing in our own sunshine.
+ + Ralph Waldo Emerson
It lies around us like a cloud--
A world we do not see;
Yet the sweet closing of an eye
May bring us there to be.
~The Other World
I don't want things to be like this anymore,
I want to talk to you, and I want to be with you.
But it seems like every time we're close,
something happens and we're right back to fighting.
And the truth is, I hate not talking to you.
If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
And the mountains should crumble to the sea
I won't cry, no I won't shed a tear
Just as long as you stand, stand by me.
"The easiest way to lose something is too want it too badly."
(Scrubs)